Determination is a strength and weakness.

Finally took a trip to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre to bring my poor baby home from the Lenovo Service Centre. I swear they shouldn't name the malls after the same name and put them so far apart.
Can't they learn from Beauty World? Situated side by side, so convenient.
I rushed over after work to collect before they close at 6.30pm and god knows i ended up at Bukit Timah Plaza!
Being the muddle-headed me, i ran around the mall wondering why does this part of the building look so modern.
Took me awhile to realise that i'm at the wrong building. Oh, before that i mistaken Beauty World Plaza as Bukit Timah Shopping Centre too! Damn.
Asked around for directions to the correct venue and the security guard told me that it's a 10-15 minutes walk away, and i was left with 12 minutes before they close.
I walked and puffed and sweated like my life depended on it, and the worse thing was that my gastric was being a total big bitch and it really hurt like mad.
Surprisingly, i reached at 6.28pm! I was only left 2 minutes to travel from the ground level to level 5.
So, i took the lift and reached just nice at 6.30pm sharp!

That's just my trip there.
My trip home was worse!

I remembered clearly that there's bus service 961 from that mall to woodlands, so i took a bus to detour to that bus stop. I walked to the nearest bus stop(since i was feeling very sick), took a look at the bus route and saw 'opp Bukit Timah Plaza'.
So once again, i mistaken Plaza as Shopping Centre. I ended up at Plaza again and there's no buses back to woodlands! So i decided to turn back to the initial bus stop and walk all the way to the bus stop that i remember VERY clearly that i alighted there before. The bus stop to turn back to my previous bus stop was so freaking far, i walked like 20 minutes to reach the bus stop. That was damn far.
Finally, i came back to where i started from. Just when i alighted the bus, it started drizzling. What luck man. So i walked another 10 minutes to the bus stop that i alighted previously. If A is the place where i took bus 961 to, which means i have to go the opp side and take the bus back to woodlands. I reached there to realise that there is on bus stop there! I decided to try my luck and continue walking down the road in search of the bus stop that i have been looking for. Finally, i found the bus stop...far away. By the time i reached the bus stop i was finding for, 45 minutes has passed. That was how long i took to find A bus stop.
Reached there and realise that the bus stop is just directly behind the back exit of Bukit Timah Shopping Centre. Wow, i felt so stupid! So i waited 20 minutes for the bus and no bus came! In the end, i still took another bus to Bukit Batok Station to take the train back to Woodlands.
Struggled so hard to reach back home, the feeling sucks man. Well, i just wanted to take the bus ride and rest for that while. In the end, i still failed to take the ride.

My close friend is going Korea to study from 30th Aug to 20th Dec, gonna miss her so much. So we decided to meet up in Korea right after she end her course. Gonna be fun, i hope. So, i'm gonna start working very hard during the upcoming holiday!

Just finished an interview today, maybe starting work on next Sunday! Pay's the same as my current job but their operating hours is longer. Which means more money each day!

Plan:
Seven days a week, 5/6 days a week at Subway from 8am to 10pm and 1/2 days a week at M1 from 11am-8pm.
I shall work half day on my birthday and celebrate with my family after that! Well, i got no choice right..since mum and i share the same birth date. A few nights in the first two weeks of Sept to club with dear Mere and i shall stop clubbing till next year! I'm gonna save money for the trip! yay! I think i'm insane! YAY!

Caitlin

Move On, Please.

It's good to see your ex moving on, with a new girlfriend.. three months after break up. Hahaha! At least I know that the game has officially ended.

But it's annoying to see your ex coming back to you.. hais. I have to stop being so softhearted. Let him be and he'll realise that I have no interest at all.

Before you fall in love, open your eyes and face the reality. Falling blindly would hurt nobody but yourself. I wonder why are there so many blinds. To be honest, before I start a game.. A person with both eyes opened would realise that I was just playing. I treat my friends better than the one i'm playing, why can't they tell.

Call me bitch, but I guess they deserved it.. but not the current one. When I found out, I was too late. He fell deep for it. I swear I didn't do anything. When I brought up the issue twice, he became on his toes whenever he's around me. Treating me like a princess. It just makes me feel guilty knowing that I would never develop feelings for him and we have no future. If one day, he goes crazy and decided to stalk all my online stuffs. He would read this. Then let me tell you here, i'm sorry.

I told you the truth, you didn't want to listen. What else can I do.

After 3 years, I've moved on. From my one and only ex. Things were like hell for my school life. But still, I thank him for the misery he caused. I grew up, a lot. I learnt to look at life in another light and realised how stupid I was to fall deeply for him. Looking back, I wonder.. was that love or game?

Whether it's love or game, it doesn't matter. The scars remain.. Drinking addiction is still there.
It's all my fault, I let it happen.

Don't ask me why do I always drink, club and do those nonsense stuff.. because I did to escape the reality.

Forget it.

Caitlin.

Baby in bed and blankie :D

Ashamed of myself

I feel ashamed to say that even my own friends are so bitchy.
One can be in a relationship for months, acting sweet and stuff..
but doing so many things behind their partner's back.

Enough of relationships with humans.

Went XH for prac last Sunday..
Each week seems to demoralise me even more than the previous.
What can I say? I'm poor so I can't afford to study in a music school?
I don't understand man. So what if you can afford, that doesn't give you the rights to show people your attitude since we are all guest players.
So missy, I have to lend you my scores and see your black face?
Whatever it is, it's none of my business.
Venture into music for all I care >:

It sucks when you know everyone's identity.
On my left is someone majoring in Erhu, on my right is someone majoring in Erhu, behind me is someone majoring in Erhu. Wow, so i'm what? I'm majoring in Management. Yay?
Worse still, it's my second time seeing the scores. My second time is like much worse than their first time.
Hey, that's totally demoralising kayy.
C'mon, if you give me all the C, D, F, G, A. I can sightread as well too!
Bflat, Eneutral, SERIOUS?
sucks man, and the songs are like insane speed.
Did I mention that the songs are concertos, which means it's like pages and pages, songs and songs.

Damn man, should not have agreed to guest play. T.T
But on the sake of my senior and those famous/popular musicians there.......
I SHALL PERSIST.

Sigh, not like I wanna venture into this line. Why am I doing this to myself..

Totally ashamed to say that I've only had 3-4 lessons this..YEAR.
Got it, this year. And my darling teacher is nagging me non-stop for lesson :/
C'mon, let's postpone grading till next year! HEHE.
Stuck for 3 years? hahahahahaha.
I seriously didn't mean to slack off~~~ but~~~
Haiya, lazy la lazy la.
Next year lo. Finish grading also no diff :/

Alright. On the bright side! I'm going Dream with Jack and other babes on Friday!
His last clubbing trip before he flying off to China for the Competition.
Pray hard he get something thr~~
This pro ass (y)

And and and! 35 more days till end of Internship! Ooooh! Happy or what! :D
Mere would be back from USA too! that woman is totally enjoying herself there man.
I'm totally jealous ):

Shall start practicing tonight, sighhh.. IF I'm not going out. :x

Loves,
Caitlin
(Back to my sleeping table *yawn*)

Have you ever thought of..

All the little things around you that would warm your heart for a second..

Like how the little boy took care of his younger brother, protecting him.
Then you think about the quarreling siblings around you and wonder why can't everyone be like them..
or maybe these boys would grow up quarreling too.

The little girl who kept pestering the father to carry her, to show her care.
Would she grow up loving her father as much as she does now?

The teenager who helped the elderly up the bus with the groceries.
Would she be as helpful as she is now in future?

Would these cute couple make it to the future together and get married?

The things that warm you up.. brings alot of questions that you would ask yourself.

Would i protect my sibling when things happen, would i bear with my aged parents?

To be honest, I yearn for love. I yearn for a good boyfriend, a good future husband.
I mean come on, who doesnt?

Maybe I'm too young for all these serious stuff.

The thoughts keep running through my mind..
If i accept this guy, would we last?
If i accept this guy, would i stop playing?

To be honest, i feel bad to play.
He was good to me, serious.

But I believe my future is more important.

Would I prefer a good living but loveless marriage or would i prefer an average living or even struggling life with the one i love.
Today, i dont know. Maybe one day i would know.

Was walking home from office today, crazy i know.
I suddenly thought about how bad i handle my emotions last time.
Feeling sad every single day.
Suddenly, i couldnt think of any thing that can make me sad.
But there's still things that make me disappointed at myself.

Loves,
Caitlin