Virgo in a Nutshell

Virgo Strength Keywords:
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise

Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering

Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.

Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.

Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.

Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.

Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.

Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

You're Somebody that I used to know

Feels good to be in contact with you again.. but those memories gushed back the moment you apologise. And silly me, i went to reread the blog posts of that period of time.

I will constantly remind myself not to fall again. I know the feeling amd it sucks.
The answer Mere told me that night, I will remember. I do not wish to repeat the same thing again.

Hopefully we are meeting for a meal on Sunday, it's been really long since we last met. As a friend, i really miss him.

Caitlin

Friendship

Sometimes i dont understand why people always say male and female can never be just friends..

These few months, Kenny and I are rather close.
We first met in 2002, after which he graduated in 2006.
We met by chance in 2008 during my MOE camp at SCH.
That was when we started to talk like friends.
we are supper buddies, smoking buddies, music buddies, colleagues, ensemble mates.. we are friends.

Maybe we are hanging out too much, people are starting to talk.
I know wad's going on.. even if i say anything, these nonsense wont stop.

Seriously, if i really like him and want to be together..
I would have done something years ago.. why wait till now?
I dont even care if he has a girlfriend or not.
If he does, then i rather we get to know each other and hang out together.
Isn't that better? better than everyone saying bad things bout each other and make friendships sour?

I know what is going on.. but i will not utter a word until he says anything.
but bear in mind, i would not be there if anything fails.

Caitlin.

Warning

28th  March 2014 would be the day I officially let go of everything.. you will be my past and always be the past.
No one shall ask, no one shall speak of it.

These 3 years were my lowest point in life.
Drinking, getting drunk, cutting, slitting, smoking..
everything i did to get over you.
Things that may seem stupid seems logical at those moment.


Recently, i've watched a couple movies and it made me wonder..
was i down with depression? It was scary.
The way they expressed the feelings of the actor was so detailed, it really felt so.
It brought back those memories and thoughts i had when i made my decisions to do those certain things.
It was the ecstasy.

These shall remain as past and foolish choice of my own.
I blame no one but myself.
Addiction is however an addiction.
I took so long to get over the addiction of cutting and slitting myself.
I may still do it once in a while, but the temptation is no longer as great as last time.
I made efforts to stop and quit.
Well, determination is the key.
And the issue is, i dont have enough.

May the day be good and end with a wonderful smile.

Caitlin

I tried my best

Because i'm an emotional person, things affect me easily.

I feel a pang of jealousy whenever i hear the notifications..
it's not that i like him, but i just feel as though he's no longer the friend i used to hang out with..
and it all started this year.
if you dont believe in fortune telling, then this post would make no sense to you.

this year, this friday, i have a vday dinner date.
I dont like the guy romantically, but at the same time, i also dont know if he asked me out for a platonic dinner or as a target. but wadeva it is.. it's the first time i'm celebrating vday since the break up three years ago.. i guess i'm making an improvement?

i'm no longer the happy-go-lucky person i used to be.
i dont like my current self, i'm no diff from sch sch times.

i feel like though im going through the same phase again.
trapped in the darkness, trapped in my emotional world.
i'm trapped.
i dont feel like conversing, i dont feel like interacting, i dont feel like talking.
i'm no longer the social butterfly ppl call me.

come to think of it, when i was a social butterfly.. did i neglect my friends?
or was i just interacting with everyone that i do not know..
is that who i am.

end of the day, who do i rely on.
i'm like a lost ship that do not have a space at the harbour.

i feel no pain.
i feel the numbness.

i drink not for the joy, i drink for the effect.
the numb feeling, even the fingers are numb.
my heart is numb, my brain is numb.
i think of nothing but the current issues, which is to drink, have fun and have fun.

when the blade slides through the skin, you feel not the pain.. but the excitement of life.
that is the advantage of drinking..

i know i will regret drinking when i wake up tmr, i know i will regret cutting now.
but you will never know what you will do when you are alone and has nowhere to turn to.

dont tell me you are there for me..
if i know you are there for me, but i chose not to turn to you.. it means i do not trust you enough to confide to you.
make sense?
I trust easily, but one thing you do will make me lose all my trust.
just one issue is enough.
call me judgmental but that's how i am.
if you know i really trust you but i do not confide in you, it means i do not want to hurt you.

i rather suffer alone than to bring my loved ones down with me.

loves,
caitlin

Values Report

Three years in poly really made me observed and learnt many things about life. I grew up in my Primary School's motto: Joy in Learning, Pure in Act. Unlike PSLE and GCE 'O' Level, we are not as competitive in poly life. End of the day, we would all graduate with the same certificate but different GPA. Would it not be better if everyone can graduate with good GPA instead of comparing within ourselves?

Perhaps we all graduated from different schools, we think differently. Some schools produced students that are more competitive. In the first few months, I thought everyone were going to be as nice as the people I made friends with in Secondary School. As we moved on to the second year of studies and people start to compare their CGPA, they tend to drift from those that are not doing as well. Things start to happen as the assignments are due. When you consult one of these competitive friends, they might not be telling you the real answer or honest guidance for your assignment. After spending one year plus together, you realized that they are not as honest and helpful as they claimed to be. All of a sudden, no one seems to be truthful when it comes to school work. As some seniors claimed, you can trust no one but your lecturers in school.

I do not know how these people can refuse to help a friend when he/she needs help or correct them when you know they are doing things wrongly. Maybe it is a good thing that I cannot bring myself to do such things. I know I am not the only one who thinks and feel that way, that is why I try to share with anyone if I can. Sharing is caring and it does not work in one direction. I may not be good in most modules but I know I am better in modules that requires us to make use of software, like AutoCAD and Revit. Even though these friends nearly made me fail an assignment before, I never refused to their call when they need help in software. Some might call me stupid but I do not understand what good would it do to me if I stay selfish and not share my knowledge. I find it ridiculous when outsiders tell me not to help them.

Like Dalai Lama said, 'If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.' I believe in passing it on and what goes around, comes around. If I do not want the same thing to happen on me, I do not do it on other people. If forking out a little of my time can bring joy or convenience to others, I would do it. Because one day in the far future, someone would be in my place and help me the same way too. If forking out a little money means less luxury for myself but bring hope for others, I would do it. Sharing is joy, there is no point being selfish and be miserable while two people can share the small happiness and be happy together. If everyone practice compassion, the world will be a happy and peaceful. In order to make everyone understand the need of compassion, I have to take the first step to influence the people around me.