First step to society

Heading Europe tonight, see ya :D

Take a pill, and chill

Finally got abit of time!
gotta rush out soon..
but the concerto is calming me, dont feel the rush :x
hahah !

these few days have been eating at home, like a rare~
dad came home two days ago, safely ^^
he brought back so many snacks~
i like :D
the cashew nuts and the lotus seeds are awesome!! hehehehe.
Dad also brought back the coffee from thr, damn nice!
but since i'm rarely at home, also no diff. T.T
hahaha.
but well, this week.. i'm a good girl..
i stayed home for all meals :D
cos i wanna save the allowance for this week to bring to europe ^^
every $10 will make me think of extra 6.5Euro!! hahahaa
little, but still can buy back one or two more gifts.
oh well..
if only the trip didnt rise to 1.6k >:
AND gc didnt deduct both of my pays!
IRRITATING CUNT.
ohkay.
influenced liao :s

actually..saving money isnt hard.
but i dont like this life of staying home..
this place isnt a nice place to live.
ahhh, welllllllll..
shall rush to teach now! :D
$45! <3

Moneyfaced - thankyou :D

I am 18 ! :D

http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma3bs15cSX1rtqlbuo1_1280.gif
It's sent by my closest friend! :D
damn touched ! haha.
and i made it into a picture, in case i cant view her short clip in future D:

Damn sweet of her right ! :D
and she's Shahidah ! the chris brown and rihanna fangirl, hehe.
but sadly, she got influenced by the kpop too ! D:

Touched to see whoever remembers my birthday..

Goodnight :D

Reason for my addiction, You

As most of my close friends know.. i drink, quite oftenly.
but how many of them know why..

Who started me?
Who taught me?
Why did i drink?

Why judge me?

The first time i had alcohol was when i'm 15..
Christmas in 2009.
I had dinner with someone and he taught me how to drink tequila mixed with 7-up.
It was an enjoyable night and i didn't wan to upset his family..so i had my first two shot.
very homely feeling..
something i dont feel at home.

We drank again during countdown..
and yeahh.
after we broke up, i couldnt get my hands on alcohol..
so i drank cough mixture..
soon they became an addiction.
I got drunk when i turned 16.
the first time i drank with other guys and got drunk..
heartwarming to know you care, but well..
it's all an act.
I drank because i realised, i could smile like i've never smiled before..
i can be the happy girl i used to be, before i fell for you..

now, i enjoy drinking.. because this is the only way for me to feel myself without cutting myself..
those scars aint a pretty sight and i dont get the highness anymore..
hahahahha.

one day, when things go wrong..
i got nobody but myself to blame.

I will live on :)

My last underaged post

Aiseh, sound damn cool.
Too long didnt update le..
well, didnt really had the mood to update..
rushed projects, rushed studying, rushed exam, rushed works, and now...
chilling and waiting for europe trip to arrive :D
and most importantly, tomorrow !
then only i can use my own i/c to buy drinks ^^
you know wad i mean hurh..

Anyway, i've added an english name..
Caitlin, sounds quite cool leh..
but alot of my friends doesn't seem to agree.. sighh.
i'm still going ahead with it :)

Caitlin Soh Qian Hui
18yo to be
a brand new start.