Time is a really scary thing when you grow up.
Once you hit sweet 16, legal 18 and royal 21..the time just fly faster and faster.
Too fast for you to stop and take a breath.
Just came back from sending my best friend to the airport, suddenly the thoughts came rushing to me.
12 years of friendship, i never realised how much she actually mean to me until today.
She'll be away for four months, i guess i'ld miss her very much.
Just like what people say, you'll never know what you have until you lose it.
I'm glad i'm not losing our friendship but just putting it on long distance.
She is someone who understands me on the back of her hands, and she's the only one that would scold me and i would listen.
We've been through thick and thin together, even went overseas together.
We ran to school while eating our shark fin soup from pasar malam,
We chew gummy bears' head off while complaining about people who pissed us off,
We got through quizzes, tests, exams and graduations together.
Looking back, it's as though we have just completed Primary school.
In 6 months' time, we would be graduating from our respective polytechnics.
Maybe we'll make it to Uni together and work force together too, just maybe.
Hope everything goes smoothly for her in Korea, stay warm and stay safe my dear. <3
Caitlin
Friday 30 August 2013
Sunday 25 August 2013
Dressing Up
Ever though of why people dress up?
Main reason : To attract
My thought would be, if you dress up to impress and/or attract, then you should really dress up and look nice.
So, if i dont want to impress, i dont dress up.
Honest speaking, if you are going opposite your house to get a drink, why would i want to dress up?
Shorts, t-shirt and tied up hair.. indecent meh? If it's not indecent, then i dont see the point of changing or dressing up.
You may call it lazy, but seriously.. who's going to see you?
I may feel very conscious, but i dont really care.
Alright, we head down to a common topic. School and Work.
Dress up nicely and put on make up, who are you meeting that day? Your future one? Your potential fling? Or are you going to make new clubbing friends? Haha. Even if you're in Poly, you'll still be meeting the same people from your class, your course, your school. The only people you'll pass by for the first or maybe only time is people you see on the way to the bus stop, on the bus, and when you're walking to the school/work.
Why would people take notice of you? Unless you are flaunting off your skin.
People reading these might think, just because you are fat and there's nothing to see, doesn't mean everyone would think that way. Then let me tell you, i'm not the only one who thinks this way.
I have friends who are skinny, quite average looking, they are the ones who dont even give a damn of how they look and off they leave the house.
Why do so many people criticize others for their clothing? It's not as if i'm wearing a tank top and a skimpy shorts and revealing my fats everywhere. That's, something for you to criticize.
I do dress up once in a while, when needed to or i think it would seem more appropriate to. Like attending a meeting with people with titles, attending school on the first day and meeting your new classmates, attending dinners with friends' families and stuff. The rest like an ordinary school day, an ordinary work day, going to the nearby mall to shop for some things..why do you even need to get worked up over what you are wearing?
If one day you hear me complaining, i dont know what to wear tomorrow! Someone who knows me would start to give suggestions like, wear that white top you like with the black jeans and a coat or something. A friend would just ask a question, 'tomorrow got what sia? Just wear anything la.' Ahh, that's a friend. Hahaha. This is the time to 'bimbo' and annoy them. Oh, i need to paint my nails and go prepare what to wear tomorrow!
To be honest, i seldom worry about what i have to wear the next day until morning. Unless it's close to the days i have to wash my clothes and my school/work clothings are running low, only then i would take out a few clothing and leave it hanging at the window. Why fret over something that was created to just cover up your body?
Just my opinion, nobody has to get worked up over this post. And reminder to those who are still holding on to my clothes, please return them if not i'll go to your place and steal one back!
Caitlin
Main reason : To attract
My thought would be, if you dress up to impress and/or attract, then you should really dress up and look nice.
So, if i dont want to impress, i dont dress up.
Honest speaking, if you are going opposite your house to get a drink, why would i want to dress up?
Shorts, t-shirt and tied up hair.. indecent meh? If it's not indecent, then i dont see the point of changing or dressing up.
You may call it lazy, but seriously.. who's going to see you?
I may feel very conscious, but i dont really care.
Alright, we head down to a common topic. School and Work.
Dress up nicely and put on make up, who are you meeting that day? Your future one? Your potential fling? Or are you going to make new clubbing friends? Haha. Even if you're in Poly, you'll still be meeting the same people from your class, your course, your school. The only people you'll pass by for the first or maybe only time is people you see on the way to the bus stop, on the bus, and when you're walking to the school/work.
Why would people take notice of you? Unless you are flaunting off your skin.
People reading these might think, just because you are fat and there's nothing to see, doesn't mean everyone would think that way. Then let me tell you, i'm not the only one who thinks this way.
I have friends who are skinny, quite average looking, they are the ones who dont even give a damn of how they look and off they leave the house.
Why do so many people criticize others for their clothing? It's not as if i'm wearing a tank top and a skimpy shorts and revealing my fats everywhere. That's, something for you to criticize.
I do dress up once in a while, when needed to or i think it would seem more appropriate to. Like attending a meeting with people with titles, attending school on the first day and meeting your new classmates, attending dinners with friends' families and stuff. The rest like an ordinary school day, an ordinary work day, going to the nearby mall to shop for some things..why do you even need to get worked up over what you are wearing?
If one day you hear me complaining, i dont know what to wear tomorrow! Someone who knows me would start to give suggestions like, wear that white top you like with the black jeans and a coat or something. A friend would just ask a question, 'tomorrow got what sia? Just wear anything la.' Ahh, that's a friend. Hahaha. This is the time to 'bimbo' and annoy them. Oh, i need to paint my nails and go prepare what to wear tomorrow!
To be honest, i seldom worry about what i have to wear the next day until morning. Unless it's close to the days i have to wash my clothes and my school/work clothings are running low, only then i would take out a few clothing and leave it hanging at the window. Why fret over something that was created to just cover up your body?
Just my opinion, nobody has to get worked up over this post. And reminder to those who are still holding on to my clothes, please return them if not i'll go to your place and steal one back!
Caitlin
Monday 5 August 2013
Should i or not?
Had erhu lesson early in the morning ysd after dk how many donkey months..
Played quite crappy with breaks here and there at a rather low speed.
Demoralised is no longer a feeling I feel but i'm sorta used to it.
When my teacher left to prepare for her work, I practiced alone.
I started to go through the whole song slowly, making sure I got every notes correct without looking at the scores.
then I went at full speed and see how my fingers run fast and smooth on the string..
This is totally different from what I was playing during lesson time.
Maybe I do have a talent in this.
I don't think I want to venture into music.
If such miracle happens every time I focus and practice, I might be able to make it big.
Do I want to carry on in music?
Would this be my interest and last me for years?
If I don't intend to carry on and go for grading, then would I stop playing?
If I carry on for grading, what would I do after I finish my Diploma?
These questions kept running through my mind..
I even dreamt of selling away everything.
I feel so disappointed in myself.
Giving up before I even started, but what do I start on?
Make it to the best orchestra?
I've been offered but I would never take it up.
It's too much pressure there, and I don't like and don't need.
I just want a fun-loving orchestra like how we used to be in BB before the bitch joined in.
If she didn't join in, I would still be there..
Even if i'm not the best there, I'ld still feel happy in the orchestra.
Maybe it's the years of being the top that makes me feel bored in orchestra.
don't say i'm bragging, i'm just a fast learner.
Maybe it would come to an end in future, maybe near future..
These questions continue to run.. if I teach, would my students be good players?
Or are the previous students I taught are naturally talented and smart, that's why they turned out good?
What should I do..
Played quite crappy with breaks here and there at a rather low speed.
Demoralised is no longer a feeling I feel but i'm sorta used to it.
When my teacher left to prepare for her work, I practiced alone.
I started to go through the whole song slowly, making sure I got every notes correct without looking at the scores.
then I went at full speed and see how my fingers run fast and smooth on the string..
This is totally different from what I was playing during lesson time.
Maybe I do have a talent in this.
I don't think I want to venture into music.
If such miracle happens every time I focus and practice, I might be able to make it big.
Do I want to carry on in music?
Would this be my interest and last me for years?
If I don't intend to carry on and go for grading, then would I stop playing?
If I carry on for grading, what would I do after I finish my Diploma?
These questions kept running through my mind..
I even dreamt of selling away everything.
I feel so disappointed in myself.
Giving up before I even started, but what do I start on?
Make it to the best orchestra?
I've been offered but I would never take it up.
It's too much pressure there, and I don't like and don't need.
I just want a fun-loving orchestra like how we used to be in BB before the bitch joined in.
If she didn't join in, I would still be there..
Even if i'm not the best there, I'ld still feel happy in the orchestra.
Maybe it's the years of being the top that makes me feel bored in orchestra.
don't say i'm bragging, i'm just a fast learner.
Maybe it would come to an end in future, maybe near future..
These questions continue to run.. if I teach, would my students be good players?
Or are the previous students I taught are naturally talented and smart, that's why they turned out good?
What should I do..
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