To be honest,
i dont like the feeling of being helpless.
i guess nobody likes that.
for me to ask for help, is like asking me to try something new.
unless it's small things and i'm close with you, then okay lurh.
i dont really like people to help me, but i like to help people..
those satisfaction, ahh~
haha ! reminds me of those visits to old folk's homes and even IMH !
Feeling frustrating today, must be pms-ing. damn. >:
Confused feeling, mixed feeling, empty, emotional..i also dk wad i'm feeling, dont ask me.
Saturday 31 March 2012
Wednesday 28 March 2012
Quick Update
Since the last day i blogged till now, quite a number of events happened.
I'ld just blog the main points~
15 Mar, went drinking with Andrea, Sebastian and Charles.
Supposed to be CDS(Psychology) outing, but well.. haha !
Finished one whole bottle of Bacardi.
Seriously..
when they went off to buy beer~ i down all the drinks i'm left with and i'm wasted already.
Lousy but yeahh.
Hope that will be the last time i'm drinking until my birthday :x
I'll try, hehe !
17 Mar, had my first official concert with TPCO.
Changed back to playing erhu, damn happy ! haha !
but my seat also changed to behind the concert master.
rather awkward, cos the people beside and behind me are older and more zai :x
then one of them is my teacher's ex-orchestra mate.
Awkward dao !
The concert was successful.
Started my new job on 19 Mar at AMK M1 shop, near the courts that side de.
Quite worried for the first few days, cos i know nothing bout the phones !
but my colleague was very nice.
hehe !
she treated me taohuey on my first day of work~
21st Mar took off to prepare for my poly clique's san jie's 18th birthday..
went Bugis to meet the other girls and home sweet home around 10+pm :x
bought a new pairs of shoes, quite pretty uh the design !
got bunny on my left :p
but cost me $49.90 ):
22nd Mar jiu meet all the girls and celebrate her birthday..
supposed to be something like amazing race and whatever, whereby she have to solve the puzzle to find us.
then i abit fail uh~
i took the position of being the camera woman, sighh..
she see me everywhere, seriously !!
damn fail ! ):
Ended at Teoheng and sing k~
then home sweet home le..
Resumed work on 24th Mar and worked all the way till 27th Mar.
Roadshow on 24-25, damn tiring !
but quite fun also, cos not that bored..
27th Mar, work was damn boring !
jitao slacked from 4+pm till end work, and i even got dismissed minutes earlier..
28th Mar, got called back to school for some stupid stuff..
Seriously, if they really expel us because of that small issue..
this school is not worth all the troubles..
furthermore, i didn't even use the school's instrument.
okay, ignore that.
Went to play pool with ian after that..
he totally scare me during the fourth round..
damn scary, like possessed :x
then i keep asking Zitong for help :s
Faster end game jiu go off le..
then went to meet my gf and weichang..
had dinner at woodlands mart jiu went under my block to see stars~
ohh, before dinner..
we went to her san shu's bbt shop..
then i went to play the catch catch machine :x
hehe, i should really stop wasting money on those small soft toys..
then i caught six toys from the machine with $3 :p
one of the bears damn cute ! i like ! although the legs are not the same length..
then i like the white empty star also ! idk why :x
then the rest..err..so so lo~
Saw Terence(evg junior) at the food court, then gave his sister one of the hello kitty phone pouch..
since she like it, then i give her lo..
i think the condition still passable uh :x
well, at least it's free..
hehe !
then i left the single-eyed red bear at a pillar~
and i gave one of the uncle who came and talked to us before left, a green-clothed gnome.
so, i'm left with one odd-looking rabbit..
hehe !
ta-da !
Till i'm free to blog again.
Loves,
D.S
28th March 2012 :
2 years le, i've learned to let go.
you are the past and i really thank you for those memories.
thanks for letting me realise how naive i was and how naive i've always been..
Take care.
I'ld just blog the main points~
15 Mar, went drinking with Andrea, Sebastian and Charles.
Supposed to be CDS(Psychology) outing, but well.. haha !
Finished one whole bottle of Bacardi.
Seriously..
when they went off to buy beer~ i down all the drinks i'm left with and i'm wasted already.
Lousy but yeahh.
Hope that will be the last time i'm drinking until my birthday :x
I'll try, hehe !
17 Mar, had my first official concert with TPCO.
Changed back to playing erhu, damn happy ! haha !
but my seat also changed to behind the concert master.
rather awkward, cos the people beside and behind me are older and more zai :x
then one of them is my teacher's ex-orchestra mate.
Awkward dao !
The concert was successful.
Started my new job on 19 Mar at AMK M1 shop, near the courts that side de.
Quite worried for the first few days, cos i know nothing bout the phones !
but my colleague was very nice.
hehe !
she treated me taohuey on my first day of work~
21st Mar took off to prepare for my poly clique's san jie's 18th birthday..
went Bugis to meet the other girls and home sweet home around 10+pm :x
bought a new pairs of shoes, quite pretty uh the design !
got bunny on my left :p
but cost me $49.90 ):
22nd Mar jiu meet all the girls and celebrate her birthday..
supposed to be something like amazing race and whatever, whereby she have to solve the puzzle to find us.
then i abit fail uh~
i took the position of being the camera woman, sighh..
she see me everywhere, seriously !!
damn fail ! ):
Ended at Teoheng and sing k~
then home sweet home le..
Resumed work on 24th Mar and worked all the way till 27th Mar.
Roadshow on 24-25, damn tiring !
but quite fun also, cos not that bored..
27th Mar, work was damn boring !
jitao slacked from 4+pm till end work, and i even got dismissed minutes earlier..
28th Mar, got called back to school for some stupid stuff..
Seriously, if they really expel us because of that small issue..
this school is not worth all the troubles..
furthermore, i didn't even use the school's instrument.
okay, ignore that.
Went to play pool with ian after that..
he totally scare me during the fourth round..
damn scary, like possessed :x
then i keep asking Zitong for help :s
Faster end game jiu go off le..
then went to meet my gf and weichang..
had dinner at woodlands mart jiu went under my block to see stars~
ohh, before dinner..
we went to her san shu's bbt shop..
then i went to play the catch catch machine :x
hehe, i should really stop wasting money on those small soft toys..
then i caught six toys from the machine with $3 :p
one of the bears damn cute ! i like ! although the legs are not the same length..
then i like the white empty star also ! idk why :x
then the rest..err..so so lo~
Saw Terence(evg junior) at the food court, then gave his sister one of the hello kitty phone pouch..
since she like it, then i give her lo..
i think the condition still passable uh :x
well, at least it's free..
hehe !
then i left the single-eyed red bear at a pillar~
and i gave one of the uncle who came and talked to us before left, a green-clothed gnome.
so, i'm left with one odd-looking rabbit..
hehe !
ta-da !
Till i'm free to blog again.
Loves,
D.S
28th March 2012 :
2 years le, i've learned to let go.
you are the past and i really thank you for those memories.
thanks for letting me realise how naive i was and how naive i've always been..
Take care.
Trust No One
Disappointed, very disappointed.
To think that i actually believed this friend
and trusted him so much..
it's all a lie.
Promising me that he wont get hooked,
seriously?
if your actions aren't telling me that you're hooked,
you think i'ld give a damn?
Enough said, i'm not going to bother anymore.
It's none of my business.
To think that i actually believed this friend
and trusted him so much..
it's all a lie.
Promising me that he wont get hooked,
seriously?
if your actions aren't telling me that you're hooked,
you think i'ld give a damn?
Enough said, i'm not going to bother anymore.
It's none of my business.
Message to you
Composed at 6.58pm via phone:
sitting at the exact spot two years ago..
this is the place we last separated.
that fine day, you broke up over text..all of a sudden.
from that day onwards, we live like strangers..
occasionally flirting, as and when you want..
or rather, when you're bored.
since that day, my life changed.
not far behind me is the place we first met..
our first argument was, the difference between a shirt and a t-shirt'..
to be honest, i still do not know the difference..
but i know something has changed for the past two years.
i've stopped cutting myself, but overdosing has not stopped, yet.
i've started drinking and i'm quite over you.
that little feeling left is just the basic care and concern i have for everyone.
take care, you.
sitting at the exact spot two years ago..
this is the place we last separated.
that fine day, you broke up over text..all of a sudden.
from that day onwards, we live like strangers..
occasionally flirting, as and when you want..
or rather, when you're bored.
since that day, my life changed.
not far behind me is the place we first met..
our first argument was, the difference between a shirt and a t-shirt'..
to be honest, i still do not know the difference..
but i know something has changed for the past two years.
i've stopped cutting myself, but overdosing has not stopped, yet.
i've started drinking and i'm quite over you.
that little feeling left is just the basic care and concern i have for everyone.
take care, you.
Wednesday 14 March 2012
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