Keppel Volunteer - National Gallery Museum

Last Monday was the official opening of the National Gallery Museum!

Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.

The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.

Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.

As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!

Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.

After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.

As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.

Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.

We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!

Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.

That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.

Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.

We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!

Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.

Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.

Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.

After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!

We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.

After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!

No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.

Looking forward to the next volunteer event!

小幸运

It has been more than a year. So many things have changed.
From a new colleague to lunch buddy and now to idk.
Was I too annoying that I pissed you off?

Looking back when I first joined, I didnt struggle much. There wasnt much for me to do initially anyway.
I doubt the importance of my existence.

Backstabbed for being racist when I can get along with all the staff while my colleague cant, on my first month.
I doubt my credibility.

Being disliked by my first dept customer just because I'm righteous.
I doubt the society's honesty.

After transferring to my second dept, I see a whole new range of staff. Every time they do something wrong, i doubt my ability.
I still do.

All along, i keep telling myself to hang in there because it's my first job. Everyone keep telling me, it might be because of your age. I admit age plays a part, but if no one is there to correct you or let you know the things you do is right or wrong.. then it is no longer about the age.

Sometimes I am just that dense.. I don't feel anything, and I need people to tell me in the face the purpose of something. Sorry that I am not that intelligent.

Over this one year and going 4 months, I still question myself if I am fit for this position. I really wonder if I have this job by luck or what.

For someone without knowledge in this field, I plunged in with a high but non-exec position. For someone that was not even 20 yet, this position is not even suitable.

I used to have a colleague who will send me to and fro home, and along the way.. he will keep planting positive thoughts in my head whenever I am feeling pessimistic. He left not long after I joined as a full timer. That one month plus were nothing but hopeful and joyful to me.

After I changed to my second dept, I met a colleague who was equally optimistic as the previous colleague. Someone with a higher and different type of humour.

Though it is also a new department, there is so many things to handle.. unlike my first department which is also relatively new. So many times I want to give up.

I keep wondering.. why is the new one in a new 4th party account? But I told myself, if I can survive this.. I can survive anything else.

I really don't know how long I can last though..

Putting full time work aside, I'm glad I survived my first semester as a part time student.
Just waiting for exam results to be out on 17th Dec!

While my 'school holiday' starts, I can get busy with the music recording with my Vesak peeps!
Target to finish '小幸运' recording and MV by end of the year. Abit late to catch up with the trend but well, still our first step.

Meanwhile, we are still recording our '悟' soundtrack. First attempt was not bad but quite rusty, gonna have a few more attempts before we finalise our first release of MV.

Got abit bored while staying over at Aunt's house over the weekend.. I wrote the lyrics of the song into its title, looks pretty not bad although the proportion is abit off. Just trying to self-console myself, Good attempt! Hehe.

Somehow, I've never waited long enough for the rainbow to appear after the storm..

Gone were the days we had constant joy in our life.

 

Looking back at the photos in my phone, I realised how fortunate I am to be surrounded by all these friends.

On the way home today, I realised people do change.
Am I the only one that didn't or am I the only one that refuses to move on.
Suddenly feel very naïve.

How many of these friends will actually be by your side at the end of the day..?
Will years of friendship will also come to an end?
Who are the ones that will actually be in your life?

What is the meaning of friendship.

No one told me that you will lose these friendships as you grow up.

Week 18 - 2015

I realised that the only time i would do blogging is when i switch on my personal laptop.
Being said, the number of times i used this laptop is pathetic.. as you can see from the frequency i post.

I have been harping for quite some time that I want to change my safety boots. No reason needed.
I'm a female. Well, at least i have a pair of spare boots in case anything happens right.

Ta-da! My pair of baby!
Love this brown shade.
I know this colour gets dirty easily.. so what!
It's still pretty! Furthermore, it was love at first sight ;)

After shopping at the Army Market for my babies, I headed down to Shuffle Bistro to meet my colleagues for a drink..two drinks..yeah.

I can't remember a thing so.. i just checked my phone's info.
These photos were taken around 2.15am.
Wow, i KO-ed early.
but.. at least i was still conscious :D

Here is Mus, disturbing me with the bottle of Martell.
He's the one holding the bottle kayy.
PS/ We all only got to know that he's an Indian, and not Malay.

Hello to the cuplrit who kept making me drink, Billy.
Says the one who quit drinking, he managed to hold his liqour very well.

Gordon from SCA, which used to be in my working site.

Ah Kiong, same dept as Mus~ under Billy.
First to KO was him, sure funny!

Last not least, my 80% drunken face.
The night ended quite scary when my friend dropped by and get a drink.
Oh well, move on.

Impromptu meet up with Marisa to West Coast Park for sunset.
So wasted that it was a cloudy evening. Didnt get to see the sun.
However, we still managed to see the sky colour gradually change.

Shortly after this photo was taken, it started to drizzle.
What a shame.

Went Sushi Express with the bride-to-be at Clementi after her wedding discussion yesterday.
Lucky day to see my favourite dish.
YUMSSSSSS.

Met up with Ian after I was done settling the west side stuff.
The 'awesome' prata he said that was near his place was closed.. so he drove me over to casuarina for PRATA!

We had one plain, one egg and one cheese.
Obviously i loved the cheese one.
The egg was good!
Oh, the plain was WOW!
Dont get deceived by the average ugly-looking prata.

Ended the night with a journey to locate this piece of heaven.
Would be better if it's not cloudy and more wind around.
Nontheless, it's awesome!
Great heart-to-heart talk place and of course, dating place.

That sums up a week.
Time to go JB for a little walk with Len now.

Long time no see

I nearly got lost finding my way to do a blog post.
Is it me or was there really changes? haha.
I am surprised, in fact.. very surprised to know that there's actually readers.
Although you guys dont come everyday or weekly or whatever, at least i know my posts are being read!
Eeling~ I know you are stalking me on a quite regular basis~ Hahaha!
I only recently saw your comment that was posted quite some time ago.

These few days have been quite interesting for me.
Friends that have stopped contacting since Sec sch graduation started forming groupchats to arrange for meetups and stuff.
Meeting new friends through other friends, then they brought friends and ya-da.
It's either i'm a real social butterfly or i just click very well with these new friends.
Wow, it really amaze me how our thoughts are similar and we always read each other's minds.
Just remind us once in a while that it's only the 3rd or 4th we're meeting up. haha!

Recently I have been hanging out quite a fair bit with Gen, Alton and Len. Always playing overnight mahjong, planning to go overseas together and stuff. This coming weekend, we're going JB for a short trip as well. It feels good to hang out with Len. Our perspective is very similar and we are the same age! At least i wont feel like a lightbulb when we're out with the Gen/Alton couple.

Had the chance to witness many couples getting together, quarreling, breaking up, etc.. makes me wonder. Why did you even get together in the first place? You used to like him because he takes very good care of you. Couple months later, you break up with him because you finding him over-possessive. Isn't this ironic? The reason you chose him in the first place, is the reason that you use to break up. Is relationship all about spices of life? Or is it just a game/entertainment?

Sometimes I think to myself.. what is a relationship for? What is it about? How does it feel like to like someone that likes you back? I think all I ever did was to fool around people's mind that I have interest on a certain person. It's an entertainment for myself. I like to keep myself busy, mentally and physically. Treating a specific person well to understand his/her likes and dislikes is something I want to achieve. Why? No reason. I just needed an aim. I dont go around confessing 'feelings' or play the game of boyfriend/girlfriend with anyone. I believe in Karma.

If the day you ever see me call a guy 'boyfriend', it means i have totally moved on and learnt to embrace life. Till that day comes, I will remain in my own world where nobody.. not even myself, will know what is going on. Since secondary school till now, I kept myself so busy and tired that there are so many times I feel like i am going to faint right on the spot or within 15 minutes if i'm not on the bed. Working days and nights in a row really works very well to keep your mind of everything.

Vending anger by cutting myself, drinking cough mixtures, spamming alcohol and get dead-drunk.. all these have stopped. I always tell myself to stop, always.. but it always fail as well. I have stopped doing these since CNY this year. However, I hate the fact that I still keep a penknife in my everyday-bag for any emergency. What kind of emergency? 'Cut-to-feel' emergency. There are times when i am very disappointed in myself, angry at myself or whatsoever, my hands would shake and I cannot do anything but breathe. It can get so bad that I am unable to even feel my own hands. The only way to feel again, was to cut.

There are alot of times I feel so lousy at work yet I can't talk to anyone about it. Who can understand my pain at work? None of my friends know how stressful it is to work, they only know how stressful it is to have exams and tests. Trust me, it's nothing. I dont want to tell any of my close friends because I know they will get worried. I rather I handle it alone than to burden other people, since they wont understand my job anyway. Working in a warehouse sounds easy. Just count the things that comes in and send these out. Yeap, easier said than done.

Everyday I go to work, praying hard that I can finish up everything by end working time. Other than processing orders, I have to look out for my team members' progress.. I have to look out for anything that can go wrong, I have to check randomly on my team if they are doing their job. I have to beware of any hidden arrows that might come shooting my back without me knowing. I am sick and tired of this adulthood. Why can't I just be a normal student to take my full time degree? Why? End of the day, no matter happy, stressed or upset.. I still face it alone. I yearn so hard for a listening ear that would understand. Will the day ever come?

Caitlin

Valentines Day soon!

Shall dedicate a Vday post on a later day when i'm done with my vday drawing.

I did it again, cos the stress was too much for me. Actually, it isn't alot.. i just have to keep cool and organise my thoughts and work.

I really want to find a solution, but there's a limit of things i can do out of warehouse.
Everything relies on physical documents and their network.. must think of a way..

Time to see the overview instead of focusing on orders.

Spent most of my off days sleeping and rotting, time to find a new hobby to kill time during off days.
Met up with my god-bro to accompany him to study at nearby mac this evening.. and i was late for a good 2 hours, cos i was still sleeping. Bad me.

While he was studying.. i started on the book i bought recently at my workplace's warehouse sales.
The Energy Bus by Jon Gordon.
Really inspiring and interesting book.

Started on my old interest again, drawing.. or rather doodling. Doodle art attract me well ever since i was exposed to it. shall do some interesting ones soon.

Listening to Qin Bin Ma Yong - Part 2
That strong chinese tradition classical. Love it. Reminds me of the concert I had with NUSCO last year. Those music days..All gone.

Caitlin

Day 150

Exactly 150th working day..

Work is getting better, but not to the expectations yet.
whenever something goes wrong, i feel very bad. Like it is all and always my fault.

I dont even know how to handle my colleagues, it wasnt as easy as my other jobs. Perhaps it's the age, experience or even gender.. or maybe i'm just lenient. I dont know, i dont know what I can do.

while i try and figure a way out, i am just a normal staff with extra complaints and stress to handle.. talk about stress man..

so many times i want to turn back to how i dealt with stress.. so many times i had the urge to hold on to the penknife.. so many times..

I've stopped smoking because I wanted a change in my life. I dont want to remember of the bad habits i had for the past few years. I want to handle things like adults do. Not to turn to cutting, smoking or drinking.

my perseverance is holding up, but for how long.. i have no idea. Im trying my best, my very best. The temptation of cutting is strong.. very strong.

perhaps im just too immature for all these. Maybe it wasnt for me, or maybe not the right time. Sometimes i just want to hide and cry all i wan. I want to behave like a child, i want to feel loved in a family. I want to be surrounded by friends and do silly things together.

Growing up is hard. Everytime i think of my friends studying and here i am, working.. i wonder why did i take this path.. would things have been different? Would i be in designing, hospitality, events... or would i be doing other things..

suddenly feel so lost. Lost of direction. Like im spending my days away, working hard and not smart. Like years of education gone to waste because this immature brain of mine is not growing as fast as i need it to be.

Im drowning.. in fear. Very demoralised.

Caitlin Soh

New year post reports LATE

Stopped blogging since months ago.. suddenly had this feel to start blogging again, so here I am.

2014 is finally over, so many things happened in this year.

I completed my Diploma (not with flying colours) with great authentic friends, at least I know who I trusted correctly and who I did not.
Poly friends dont usually stop contacting after Poly, it's how you make things work and their mentality when they were friends with you.
I'm not one to put in effort for friends whom I doubt they would stay, but some made the effort. We dont usually meet up, but we do it once in a blue blue moon.

I stopped playing music, in all kinds of aspect. Trust me, E140 would be the only thing to summon me back to that world because I promised Jason. If not, nope. I believe the babies would just lie down there..

I helped an event run with the actual full timers from PICO, and it was a great success! It was fun and I made a whole group of awesome people. This group of awesome people actually involved my initial group of AWESOME people at the Changi night shift job, which we are still keep in touch. PICO staff still call me once in a while to help out in their events.

I got my first full time job and I am glad there was no interview because the C in my Career Communication dampen my spirit before I even had any interviews, not to mention any failed interviews.. Anyway, i got in and started full time on 1st Aug. Colleagues were not bad, needed a bit of mental adjustment to get used to the type of people I see and hang out with everyday. Not to mention, some little politics because they didn't like to see you at your current position or wadeva-not. I got used to it. Glad I managed to change department in mid-Oct. Not exactly heaven, but much much better than the previous. In terms of superior, environment and customer wise.. it's all much better. MUCH.

In 2015, I want to achieve things. Not in terms of career, but in terms of my personal life.

First of all, I want to start on my Degree. Planning to take my degree in UniSIM as a part time student, whether or not I can managed.. I will still give it a try.

Secondly, I want to last in my current company and not call it a quit for at least 3 years.

Third, I want to travel alone. Still thinking of where I should go.. Hk? Twn? A totally-ME time.

Yea, 3 things in 2015. Nothing much I can think of anyway..

Pretty pessi recently, no idea why either. Probably quite bad luck these days.. and I'm down with a horrible sore throat and a nerve-wrecking toothache.

Till then
Caitlin