Poly Life, perhaps not my cup of tea

It's the bottom time in my life again.

To be honest, just tell me in my face if you dont wan me to do anything kay?
If you're going to change all my work, then why waste my time and do.
It's not saying that i find it a waste of time to do projects, but if you're not going to use it.. it's a waste of my time and indirectly telling me that my work is barely passable to presentable.
Changing report and not telling me anything..am i still in the group?
The moment when i open a document, i see this changed and that changed and i know nothing..
i dont feel bad? thanks for making me feel useless and guilty for not doing anything for the project.
Adding work on last minute, i also never say anything.
Maybe the additional work can cover up what i'm supposed to do but didnt get a chance to.

Not only is projects screwing up, even internship group is.
We said to register as a group..now one went off to try CAG, and another one for another hotel.
Leaving two people in the group..serious?
After discussing so much..
so now wad, i'm supposed to leave and find my own internship?

Nowadays, go school also sian.
Dont even feel like talking to anyone.
Whatsapp sound non-stop.
So irritating.. why cant people stop talking to me, why cant they sense that i dont wish to converse with them?

i need a night out, i need a drink, i need a smoke, i need to get drunk, i need to pop some pills, i need to cut, i need to feel.. I need a rest.

My life isn't as happy-go-lucky as you think it is.
Stop fucking judging me.
You've not been through what I've been..
You are a well-sheltered, well-fed kid, i'm not. so stfu.