Time flies isnt it..
In a blink of eye, it has already been slightly over three years since I joined.
So many different types of experiences here.
Gonna update next time. SIGH.
Monday, 17 June 2019
Thursday, 11 April 2019
Surprise! Alive and Kicking
The blog has been dead for so many years. It's almost 3 years in this company.
Friday, 17 June 2016
Second Job : Advantest
Upon completion of 2 weeks in
Advantest, I managed to try some system hands on.
Many tell me to treasure my free time now, as work will be very hectic next time.
However, I am looking forward to the maddening job scope.
Maybe I would prefer the busy times than the free times still. Haha.
I do not have anything to do and my direct superior is not a fan of me hanging out with other dept staff.
Toilet is so far, it takes around 10 min to make a quick trip to the ladies.
Smoking area is actually nearer than the toilet itself.
Because I’m down with a very bad sore throat, I cannot smoke..
So I’m really left with nothing much.
I cannot walk about the office or building. I cannot sit at my desk and play my phone openly.
I can only sit here, act busy and wait for my colleagues to give me some jobs that I can do..
And those jobs normally take 5-10minutes.
Waiting patiently for the time I
can fully handle orders.
Many tell me to treasure my free time now, as work will be very hectic next time.
However, I am looking forward to the maddening job scope.
Call me sick or what, but I
prefer to work than to lepak.
Worse still, paid to lepak.
Now I keep spending time
thinking, how much I would appreciate the free time I have now.
Maybe I should pen down my
feelings when I’m in the free time for my reference when I’m insanely busy.Maybe I would prefer the busy times than the free times still. Haha.
I do not have anything to do and my direct superior is not a fan of me hanging out with other dept staff.
Toilet is so far, it takes around 10 min to make a quick trip to the ladies.
Smoking area is actually nearer than the toilet itself.
Because I’m down with a very bad sore throat, I cannot smoke..
So I’m really left with nothing much.
I cannot walk about the office or building. I cannot sit at my desk and play my phone openly.
I can only sit here, act busy and wait for my colleagues to give me some jobs that I can do..
And those jobs normally take 5-10minutes.
Bored die me.
Friday, 3 June 2016
First Job : Keppel Logistics
To think back when i first started working logistics field two years back..
Everyday's work is all about moving heavy things around, frustrating at our supervisor, hiding from customer, sweating profusely in the insanely hot warehouse, scanning all sorts of products while chatting with the person in front of you.. everyday we leave house before the sun is up and go home hours after the sun set. Months of working without seeing the sun, without having a day to rest. Constantly complaining the steel toe boots is too heavy, walking and dragging our feet around..
Everything seemed interesting there.. big machines that carry people so high up, loud beeping sound when the machines reverse, small machines that can run like f1, using honks to make melody and getting scolded for it.
Graveyard 12hours shift with no extra allowances, drinking redbull, hourly smoking session at the loading bay, using cardboard to make ourselves a bed to lie down and rest like a boss. The first night of graveyard shift was the time i met Ling, the supply chain manager handling my dept. She offered me a full time position as a team leader after knowing that i intend to leave in 2 weeks time.
All part time and full time staff will sit together and gossip about this and that, sharing of their past working experience during breaks.
Things started to change and needed to change after i took up the full time position.
I unknowingly signed myself in as an officer, assuming that was the 'team leader' they offered verbally. Assuming black coloured shirt was for female and orange for male, not knowing that the colours actually meant diff positions. I signed myself into a whole new world.
I did not know i was supposed to have my office table, my locker, my name stamp, company stamp, name card and etc.. i knew nothing. Nobody was there to guide me.
During the first month of full time, i had a very supportive colleague who would always teach me this and that and explain to me about these logistics stuff. He left shortly later and i got transferred to another dept.
In the new dept, i got to know a new colleague who kept emphasing that i am no longer a student nor a trainer and i need to step up as an officer. Things were alright, he was a humourous guy. Days were enjoyable.
Things started going downstream when days became bearable. Staff started to show their true colour. I knew i was in deep trouble. I could expect what kind of issue i am facing. Yet, i could do nothing.
When i could not take the stress, i finally spoke out. All he could do was to talk to the staff. But isnt it too late..
Later, i found a way to handle the issue. It wasnt too long before i realised im not catching up fast enough with my colleague. After a year in work, i started to doubt my capability and my purpose in the dept.
Was my job in this dept to constantly work like a warehouse assistant, warehouse coordinator and supervisor while taking on tasks of an executive? What am I? What is an officer role? What is the purpose of my existence.
That was the first time i gave serious thought to leaving the company. I called Ling and told her what i thought. The main issue i had there was lack of staff. Since the company wasnt supportive, i didnt see a point of me staying as well. Knowing my absense would cause even bigger issue to the dept, i did not bother at all.
I decided to leave the company although i did not secure any jobs. I texted my colleague that i wanted to talk to him the following day after work. I wanted to tell him that i've decided to leave. Who would have expected the same morning, he told me that a new staff would be transferred over the following month. If that's the case, then maybe i wouldnt have decided to leave.
My job scope changed when the new staff came in. My role is to monitor the dept order progress and to check their work for any or potential mistakes. Constantly keeping a close track on all inbound, outbound, admin matters and customer's request or enquiries. Things got much better.
However, i realised my job had much more severe consequence than what i was tasked. I admit i have to oversee everyone but this doesnt mean every single little thing must be observed by me. How would i know which order is the picker picking now? How would i know how secure every goods are packed in? How would i know whether all the inbound are correctly received in system and correctly putaaway? How do you expect me to follow on everyone's every single action?
Whenever someone did a mistake during the process, i am the one at fault. I am the one to get questioned first. Months after my job scope changed, i started to doubt my capability again. Was it really me or are they using me to push blame to? Did i really do something or was my colleague trying to vend his external anger to me? Sometimes.. it's really a trivial matter but he scolded me until i commited a grave mistake.
Beginning of this year, i realised i couldnt take the work stress and school stress together. I realised people changed as well, bad changes. I stopped having small chats. I stopped communicating with my colleague. I stopped putting in so much effort. I started to find a job.
It wasnt long before i started attending interviews. On my third interview, i immediately got an offer. This was my chance to escape. So, i did it. I printed my resignation letter that i drafted a month ago. I signed it and chose a timing to submit. I tendered on 5th May.
While serving my one month of notice, i thought about alot. What would have made my experience better here? Staff attitude, customer's existence, management, pay.
Because keppel is my first job, i am aware i am here to learn. I did not mind about the pay. Management was the biggest issue.
I left on 3rd jun. Leaving with a heavy heart. I do not regret my choice but i will definitely miss the place and the people. I hate goodbyes.
I visited Ling before i did my clearance. We chatted alot. She also answered the question i had in me for the whole one year plus.. quite happy to see that she really liked the terrarium i gave her.
After my clearance, i went to chat with our receptionist. Talked about alot of irrelevant stuff before i went to join the supply chain guys and clarence from security dept at the smoking area. We stayed there till slightly before knock off time. And i guess.. that's the end of my life in keppel.
01082014-03062016
Everyday's work is all about moving heavy things around, frustrating at our supervisor, hiding from customer, sweating profusely in the insanely hot warehouse, scanning all sorts of products while chatting with the person in front of you.. everyday we leave house before the sun is up and go home hours after the sun set. Months of working without seeing the sun, without having a day to rest. Constantly complaining the steel toe boots is too heavy, walking and dragging our feet around..
Everything seemed interesting there.. big machines that carry people so high up, loud beeping sound when the machines reverse, small machines that can run like f1, using honks to make melody and getting scolded for it.
Graveyard 12hours shift with no extra allowances, drinking redbull, hourly smoking session at the loading bay, using cardboard to make ourselves a bed to lie down and rest like a boss. The first night of graveyard shift was the time i met Ling, the supply chain manager handling my dept. She offered me a full time position as a team leader after knowing that i intend to leave in 2 weeks time.
All part time and full time staff will sit together and gossip about this and that, sharing of their past working experience during breaks.
Things started to change and needed to change after i took up the full time position.
I unknowingly signed myself in as an officer, assuming that was the 'team leader' they offered verbally. Assuming black coloured shirt was for female and orange for male, not knowing that the colours actually meant diff positions. I signed myself into a whole new world.
I did not know i was supposed to have my office table, my locker, my name stamp, company stamp, name card and etc.. i knew nothing. Nobody was there to guide me.
During the first month of full time, i had a very supportive colleague who would always teach me this and that and explain to me about these logistics stuff. He left shortly later and i got transferred to another dept.
In the new dept, i got to know a new colleague who kept emphasing that i am no longer a student nor a trainer and i need to step up as an officer. Things were alright, he was a humourous guy. Days were enjoyable.
Things started going downstream when days became bearable. Staff started to show their true colour. I knew i was in deep trouble. I could expect what kind of issue i am facing. Yet, i could do nothing.
When i could not take the stress, i finally spoke out. All he could do was to talk to the staff. But isnt it too late..
Later, i found a way to handle the issue. It wasnt too long before i realised im not catching up fast enough with my colleague. After a year in work, i started to doubt my capability and my purpose in the dept.
Was my job in this dept to constantly work like a warehouse assistant, warehouse coordinator and supervisor while taking on tasks of an executive? What am I? What is an officer role? What is the purpose of my existence.
That was the first time i gave serious thought to leaving the company. I called Ling and told her what i thought. The main issue i had there was lack of staff. Since the company wasnt supportive, i didnt see a point of me staying as well. Knowing my absense would cause even bigger issue to the dept, i did not bother at all.
I decided to leave the company although i did not secure any jobs. I texted my colleague that i wanted to talk to him the following day after work. I wanted to tell him that i've decided to leave. Who would have expected the same morning, he told me that a new staff would be transferred over the following month. If that's the case, then maybe i wouldnt have decided to leave.
My job scope changed when the new staff came in. My role is to monitor the dept order progress and to check their work for any or potential mistakes. Constantly keeping a close track on all inbound, outbound, admin matters and customer's request or enquiries. Things got much better.
However, i realised my job had much more severe consequence than what i was tasked. I admit i have to oversee everyone but this doesnt mean every single little thing must be observed by me. How would i know which order is the picker picking now? How would i know how secure every goods are packed in? How would i know whether all the inbound are correctly received in system and correctly putaaway? How do you expect me to follow on everyone's every single action?
Whenever someone did a mistake during the process, i am the one at fault. I am the one to get questioned first. Months after my job scope changed, i started to doubt my capability again. Was it really me or are they using me to push blame to? Did i really do something or was my colleague trying to vend his external anger to me? Sometimes.. it's really a trivial matter but he scolded me until i commited a grave mistake.
Beginning of this year, i realised i couldnt take the work stress and school stress together. I realised people changed as well, bad changes. I stopped having small chats. I stopped communicating with my colleague. I stopped putting in so much effort. I started to find a job.
It wasnt long before i started attending interviews. On my third interview, i immediately got an offer. This was my chance to escape. So, i did it. I printed my resignation letter that i drafted a month ago. I signed it and chose a timing to submit. I tendered on 5th May.
While serving my one month of notice, i thought about alot. What would have made my experience better here? Staff attitude, customer's existence, management, pay.
Because keppel is my first job, i am aware i am here to learn. I did not mind about the pay. Management was the biggest issue.
I left on 3rd jun. Leaving with a heavy heart. I do not regret my choice but i will definitely miss the place and the people. I hate goodbyes.
I visited Ling before i did my clearance. We chatted alot. She also answered the question i had in me for the whole one year plus.. quite happy to see that she really liked the terrarium i gave her.
After my clearance, i went to chat with our receptionist. Talked about alot of irrelevant stuff before i went to join the supply chain guys and clarence from security dept at the smoking area. We stayed there till slightly before knock off time. And i guess.. that's the end of my life in keppel.
01082014-03062016
Monday, 30 May 2016
Last week of my first full-time job
Time flies.. I'm already counting down to the last day of work.
After clearing two weeks of Annual Leave for my uni sem exam, I'm left with 5 working days.
Coming back to work feels weird, like everything seems so foreign.
Maybe I'm too looking forward to my new job which is starting next Monday.
I am aware that everyone is waiting to see my result there and they have rather high expectations.
Hopefully, I don't kill myself there.
Anyway, I made terrariums again.
but this time round, it is given as a farewell gift.
Quite nicely done I would say.. hehe.
To be honest, I will definitely miss the place and the people.
Even though the place and environment isn't really the usual workplace a teenager would want to work in, I find this area rather homely after a period of time.
During the 2 weeks of leave, some of the guys texted me saying that they missed my presence.
Regardless is break time, smoke break or journey to and fro woodlands/workplace.
I think you feel comforted that your leaving will have an impact on others. At least you wont feel so lonely.
Since most of the people in my work site are male, does that explains why most of them are like father figures to me. Charming men. hahaha.
I guess it's time I take a mental break.
I can stop behaving like a work-no-life adult.
I can and need to reprioritize my own life.
After clearing two weeks of Annual Leave for my uni sem exam, I'm left with 5 working days.
Coming back to work feels weird, like everything seems so foreign.
Maybe I'm too looking forward to my new job which is starting next Monday.
I am aware that everyone is waiting to see my result there and they have rather high expectations.
Hopefully, I don't kill myself there.
Anyway, I made terrariums again.
but this time round, it is given as a farewell gift.
Quite nicely done I would say.. hehe.
To be honest, I will definitely miss the place and the people.
Even though the place and environment isn't really the usual workplace a teenager would want to work in, I find this area rather homely after a period of time.
During the 2 weeks of leave, some of the guys texted me saying that they missed my presence.
Regardless is break time, smoke break or journey to and fro woodlands/workplace.
I think you feel comforted that your leaving will have an impact on others. At least you wont feel so lonely.
Since most of the people in my work site are male, does that explains why most of them are like father figures to me. Charming men. hahaha.
I guess it's time I take a mental break.
I can stop behaving like a work-no-life adult.
I can and need to reprioritize my own life.
Friday, 22 April 2016
Time to quit and move on
Working here used to be a joy.
I look forward to work everyday.
Regardless of how hard the work is, I look forward.
I am willing to come back and work even though I am on MC.
That was how much I loved my work.
Loved.
After 1 year and 8 months, I decided I've had enough of this place.
I am on a job hunt again.
Spamming resumes to all sort of jobs, like planner, tourism and even customer service.
http://jobsearch.about.com/od/resignation/fl/Warning-Sings-You-Need-a-New-Job.htm
Strike All.
I cannot deny that I learnt a lot here.
But, not in terms of operations.
I learnt how to hold my anger and not vend on anyone.
I learnt how to contain my emotions and smile at the rest.
Still, I have not kicked my bad habit of cutting.
I am just like an elastic band.
I can stretch far and wide, but..
If you keep on stretching without considering about my condition.. I will snap.
Like I said, I don't vend on anyone.
I vend on myself.
Cutting, drinking.. I blame myself for being such a weakling, unable to withstand whatever they want.
I have to admit, I am not as strong as everyone think I am.
Sometimes, you have to catch the seriousness in my joke.
Sometimes, my joke is the truth.
If no one believe, then so be it.
Don't say I never mentioned.
Problem is, I did and no one believed.
I don't understand why should there be politics.
Everyone is out to earn money together, why make life so difficult.
Why frame ppl to earn some unseen credits.
Why can't you adults help each other and improve together.
To be honest, after working for this period of time..
I still don't have the sense of being this company's staff.
I hate it when people give you the 'Wow' look.
No people, look. It's no as good as you think it is.
I am not tasked to do things that is my responsibility because I have no access to company's intranet.
I have no access to company's stuff despite my position.
I am tired of thinking how things could have been better.
No point thinking so much anyway.
Shall rest my case and find a new job, perhaps a boyfriend too :p
I look forward to work everyday.
Regardless of how hard the work is, I look forward.
I am willing to come back and work even though I am on MC.
That was how much I loved my work.
Loved.
After 1 year and 8 months, I decided I've had enough of this place.
I am on a job hunt again.
Spamming resumes to all sort of jobs, like planner, tourism and even customer service.
http://jobsearch.about.com/od/resignation/fl/Warning-Sings-You-Need-a-New-Job.htm
Strike All.
I cannot deny that I learnt a lot here.
But, not in terms of operations.
I learnt how to hold my anger and not vend on anyone.
I learnt how to contain my emotions and smile at the rest.
Still, I have not kicked my bad habit of cutting.
I am just like an elastic band.
I can stretch far and wide, but..
If you keep on stretching without considering about my condition.. I will snap.
Like I said, I don't vend on anyone.
I vend on myself.
Cutting, drinking.. I blame myself for being such a weakling, unable to withstand whatever they want.
I have to admit, I am not as strong as everyone think I am.
Sometimes, you have to catch the seriousness in my joke.
Sometimes, my joke is the truth.
If no one believe, then so be it.
Don't say I never mentioned.
Problem is, I did and no one believed.
I don't understand why should there be politics.
Everyone is out to earn money together, why make life so difficult.
Why frame ppl to earn some unseen credits.
Why can't you adults help each other and improve together.
To be honest, after working for this period of time..
I still don't have the sense of being this company's staff.
I hate it when people give you the 'Wow' look.
No people, look. It's no as good as you think it is.
I am not tasked to do things that is my responsibility because I have no access to company's intranet.
I have no access to company's stuff despite my position.
I am tired of thinking how things could have been better.
No point thinking so much anyway.
Shall rest my case and find a new job, perhaps a boyfriend too :p
Tuesday, 19 January 2016
Lovesick
Lovesick is like homesick.
Homesick people are away from home but want to be home.
Lovesick people are away from love and want to be in love.
You know you are in trouble when you experience the following:
- Smile to yourself for no reason
- Overreacting with your imagination (Esp. Female)
- Keeping little things as memories
A single touch will make your heart flutter.
A single word can make your heart skip a beat.
Endless memories to remember.
Worse when you have a good memory.
The smile, smell, reaction, expression.. everything.
Feeling like a schoolgirl again.
Homesick people are away from home but want to be home.
Lovesick people are away from love and want to be in love.
You know you are in trouble when you experience the following:
- Smile to yourself for no reason
- Overreacting with your imagination (Esp. Female)
- Keeping little things as memories
A single touch will make your heart flutter.
A single word can make your heart skip a beat.
Endless memories to remember.
Worse when you have a good memory.
The smile, smell, reaction, expression.. everything.
Feeling like a schoolgirl again.
Monday, 4 January 2016
Working life (POV of a 21yo)
Society says that we are the strawberry generation.
Damaged with a little hard pinch.
Who are we to blame? The schools for not teaching us how to survive this society?
Are we not too educated in terms of words and not life?
After 3 years of polytechnic studies and working for going two years, I still do not understand why is Amaths or Engineering maths relevant to our work.
Do you mean my customers or my boss might suddenly ask me what is sin x?
At the age of 21, I have to handle 6 staff in one department.
Yea, sounds easy right. What if I say these 6 are worse than handling a class of primary school students..
I have been teaching students of all age since I was in upper primary. I was even given chances to teach elderly on a one-to-one basis. None of those made me as stressed as I am now.
Like my colleague told me, times have changed. Staff don't follow instruction just because they are given instructions. They need reasons for the instructions.
For the past 4 years of working as event coordinator, part timers and ad-hocs, I have never met such unreasonable human beings before. Maybe my luck have ran out. My team is fucked up.
Being a short tempered and rebellious child since young, I have to admit that my tolerance level is so high that even my own friends are shocked.
After stepping into the society, I realized.. Singapore education is not helping students blend into the society. After my first year of work, having internship with the most fucked up student seems like a piece of cake.
Things I used to do when I'm upset or stressed, are not allowed because I am in the society.
I stopped drinking, because I always have work the next day.
I stopped hanging out late, because I always have to wake up early the next day.
I cannot vend my emotions on social media, because I cannot talk bad about my colleagues or company.
I cannot meet my friends often, because I am always tired by the time I end work and reached my house area.
Weekends, public holidays and leaves are all used to replenish sleep.
However, your body clock is so screwed that you will still wake up very early.
You have hard time falling back to sleep but your brain is refusing to move an inch.
So many things to express, so many things to cry over..
Hate looking so strong, my insides are crumpling down.
I seriously need a drink. HAIS.
Damaged with a little hard pinch.
Who are we to blame? The schools for not teaching us how to survive this society?
Are we not too educated in terms of words and not life?
After 3 years of polytechnic studies and working for going two years, I still do not understand why is Amaths or Engineering maths relevant to our work.
Do you mean my customers or my boss might suddenly ask me what is sin x?
At the age of 21, I have to handle 6 staff in one department.
Yea, sounds easy right. What if I say these 6 are worse than handling a class of primary school students..
I have been teaching students of all age since I was in upper primary. I was even given chances to teach elderly on a one-to-one basis. None of those made me as stressed as I am now.
Like my colleague told me, times have changed. Staff don't follow instruction just because they are given instructions. They need reasons for the instructions.
For the past 4 years of working as event coordinator, part timers and ad-hocs, I have never met such unreasonable human beings before. Maybe my luck have ran out. My team is fucked up.
Being a short tempered and rebellious child since young, I have to admit that my tolerance level is so high that even my own friends are shocked.
After stepping into the society, I realized.. Singapore education is not helping students blend into the society. After my first year of work, having internship with the most fucked up student seems like a piece of cake.
Things I used to do when I'm upset or stressed, are not allowed because I am in the society.
I stopped drinking, because I always have work the next day.
I stopped hanging out late, because I always have to wake up early the next day.
I cannot vend my emotions on social media, because I cannot talk bad about my colleagues or company.
I cannot meet my friends often, because I am always tired by the time I end work and reached my house area.
Weekends, public holidays and leaves are all used to replenish sleep.
However, your body clock is so screwed that you will still wake up very early.
You have hard time falling back to sleep but your brain is refusing to move an inch.
So many things to express, so many things to cry over..
Hate looking so strong, my insides are crumpling down.
I seriously need a drink. HAIS.
Thursday, 3 December 2015
Keppel Volunteer - National Gallery Museum
Last Monday was the official opening of the National Gallery Museum!
Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.
The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.
Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.
As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!
Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.
After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.
As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.
Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.
We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!
Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.
That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.
Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.
We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!
Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.
Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.
Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.
After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!
We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.
After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!
No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.
Looking forward to the next volunteer event!
Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.
The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.
Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.
As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!
Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.
After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.
As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.
Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.
We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!
Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.
That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.
Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.
We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!
Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.
Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.
Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.
After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!
We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.
After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!
No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.
Looking forward to the next volunteer event!
Sunday, 22 November 2015
小幸运
It
has been more than a year. So many things have changed.
From a new colleague to lunch buddy and now to idk.
Was I too annoying that I pissed you off?
Looking back when I first joined, I didnt struggle much. There wasnt much for me to do initially anyway.
I doubt the importance of my existence.
Backstabbed for being racist when I can get along with all the staff while my colleague cant, on my first month.
I doubt my credibility.
Being disliked by my first dept customer just because I'm righteous.
I doubt the society's honesty.
After transferring to my second dept, I see a whole new range of staff. Every time they do something wrong, i doubt my ability.
I still do.
All along, i keep telling myself to hang in there because it's my first job. Everyone keep telling me, it might be because of your age. I admit age plays a part, but if no one is there to correct you or let you know the things you do is right or wrong.. then it is no longer about the age.
Sometimes I am just that dense.. I don't feel anything, and I need people to tell me in the face the purpose of something. Sorry that I am not that intelligent.
Over this one year and going 4 months, I still question myself if I am fit for this position. I really wonder if I have this job by luck or what.
For someone without knowledge in this field, I plunged in with a high but non-exec position. For someone that was not even 20 yet, this position is not even suitable.
I used to have a colleague who will send me to and fro home, and along the way.. he will keep planting positive thoughts in my head whenever I am feeling pessimistic. He left not long after I joined as a full timer. That one month plus were nothing but hopeful and joyful to me.
After I changed to my second dept, I met a colleague who was equally optimistic as the previous colleague. Someone with a higher and different type of humour.
Though it is also a new department, there is so many things to handle.. unlike my first department which is also relatively new. So many times I want to give up.
I keep wondering.. why is the new one in a new 4th party account? But I told myself, if I can survive this.. I can survive anything else.
I really don't know how long I can last though..
Putting full time work aside, I'm glad I survived my first semester as a part time student.
Just waiting for exam results to be out on 17th Dec!
While my 'school holiday' starts, I can get busy with the music recording with my Vesak peeps!
Target to finish '小幸运' recording and MV by end of the year. Abit late to catch up with the trend but well, still our first step.
Meanwhile, we are still recording our '悟' soundtrack. First attempt was not bad but quite rusty, gonna have a few more attempts before we finalise our first release of MV.
Got abit bored while staying over at Aunt's house over the weekend.. I wrote the lyrics of the song into its title, looks pretty not bad although the proportion is abit off. Just trying to self-console myself, Good attempt! Hehe.
From a new colleague to lunch buddy and now to idk.
Was I too annoying that I pissed you off?
Looking back when I first joined, I didnt struggle much. There wasnt much for me to do initially anyway.
I doubt the importance of my existence.
Backstabbed for being racist when I can get along with all the staff while my colleague cant, on my first month.
I doubt my credibility.
Being disliked by my first dept customer just because I'm righteous.
I doubt the society's honesty.
After transferring to my second dept, I see a whole new range of staff. Every time they do something wrong, i doubt my ability.
I still do.
All along, i keep telling myself to hang in there because it's my first job. Everyone keep telling me, it might be because of your age. I admit age plays a part, but if no one is there to correct you or let you know the things you do is right or wrong.. then it is no longer about the age.
Sometimes I am just that dense.. I don't feel anything, and I need people to tell me in the face the purpose of something. Sorry that I am not that intelligent.
Over this one year and going 4 months, I still question myself if I am fit for this position. I really wonder if I have this job by luck or what.
For someone without knowledge in this field, I plunged in with a high but non-exec position. For someone that was not even 20 yet, this position is not even suitable.
I used to have a colleague who will send me to and fro home, and along the way.. he will keep planting positive thoughts in my head whenever I am feeling pessimistic. He left not long after I joined as a full timer. That one month plus were nothing but hopeful and joyful to me.
After I changed to my second dept, I met a colleague who was equally optimistic as the previous colleague. Someone with a higher and different type of humour.
Though it is also a new department, there is so many things to handle.. unlike my first department which is also relatively new. So many times I want to give up.
I keep wondering.. why is the new one in a new 4th party account? But I told myself, if I can survive this.. I can survive anything else.
I really don't know how long I can last though..
Putting full time work aside, I'm glad I survived my first semester as a part time student.
Just waiting for exam results to be out on 17th Dec!
While my 'school holiday' starts, I can get busy with the music recording with my Vesak peeps!
Target to finish '小幸运' recording and MV by end of the year. Abit late to catch up with the trend but well, still our first step.
Meanwhile, we are still recording our '悟' soundtrack. First attempt was not bad but quite rusty, gonna have a few more attempts before we finalise our first release of MV.
Got abit bored while staying over at Aunt's house over the weekend.. I wrote the lyrics of the song into its title, looks pretty not bad although the proportion is abit off. Just trying to self-console myself, Good attempt! Hehe.
Sunday, 8 November 2015
Somehow, I've never waited long enough for the rainbow to appear after the storm..
Gone were the days we had constant joy in our life.
Looking back at the photos in my phone, I realised how fortunate I am to be surrounded by all these friends.
On the way home today, I realised people do change.
Am I the only one that didn't or am I the only one that refuses to move on.
Suddenly feel very naïve.
How many of these friends will actually be by your side at the end of the day..?
Will years of friendship will also come to an end?
Who are the ones that will actually be in your life?
What is the meaning of friendship.
No one told me that you will lose these friendships as you grow up.
Sunday, 3 May 2015
Week 18 - 2015
I realised that the only time i would do blogging is when i switch on my personal laptop.
Being said, the number of times i used this laptop is pathetic.. as you can see from the frequency i post.
I have been harping for quite some time that I want to change my safety boots. No reason needed.
I'm a female. Well, at least i have a pair of spare boots in case anything happens right.
Ta-da! My pair of baby!
Love this brown shade.
I know this colour gets dirty easily.. so what!
It's still pretty! Furthermore, it was love at first sight ;)
After shopping at the Army Market for my babies, I headed down to Shuffle Bistro to meet my colleagues for a drink..two drinks..yeah.
I can't remember a thing so.. i just checked my phone's info.
These photos were taken around 2.15am.
Wow, i KO-ed early.
but.. at least i was still conscious :D
Here is Mus, disturbing me with the bottle of Martell.
He's the one holding the bottle kayy.
PS/ We all only got to know that he's an Indian, and not Malay.
Hello to the cuplrit who kept making me drink, Billy.
Says the one who quit drinking, he managed to hold his liqour very well.
Gordon from SCA, which used to be in my working site.
Ah Kiong, same dept as Mus~ under Billy.
First to KO was him, sure funny!
Last not least, my 80% drunken face.
The night ended quite scary when my friend dropped by and get a drink.
Oh well, move on.
Impromptu meet up with Marisa to West Coast Park for sunset.
So wasted that it was a cloudy evening. Didnt get to see the sun.
However, we still managed to see the sky colour gradually change.
Shortly after this photo was taken, it started to drizzle.
What a shame.
Went Sushi Express with the bride-to-be at Clementi after her wedding discussion yesterday.
Lucky day to see my favourite dish.
YUMSSSSSS.
Met up with Ian after I was done settling the west side stuff.
The 'awesome' prata he said that was near his place was closed.. so he drove me over to casuarina for PRATA!
We had one plain, one egg and one cheese.
Obviously i loved the cheese one.
The egg was good!
Oh, the plain was WOW!
Dont get deceived by the average ugly-looking prata.
Ended the night with a journey to locate this piece of heaven.
Would be better if it's not cloudy and more wind around.
Nontheless, it's awesome!
Great heart-to-heart talk place and of course, dating place.
That sums up a week.
Time to go JB for a little walk with Len now.
Being said, the number of times i used this laptop is pathetic.. as you can see from the frequency i post.
I have been harping for quite some time that I want to change my safety boots. No reason needed.
I'm a female. Well, at least i have a pair of spare boots in case anything happens right.
Love this brown shade.
I know this colour gets dirty easily.. so what!
It's still pretty! Furthermore, it was love at first sight ;)
After shopping at the Army Market for my babies, I headed down to Shuffle Bistro to meet my colleagues for a drink..two drinks..yeah.
I can't remember a thing so.. i just checked my phone's info.
These photos were taken around 2.15am.
Wow, i KO-ed early.
but.. at least i was still conscious :D
Here is Mus, disturbing me with the bottle of Martell.
He's the one holding the bottle kayy.
PS/ We all only got to know that he's an Indian, and not Malay.
Hello to the cuplrit who kept making me drink, Billy.
Says the one who quit drinking, he managed to hold his liqour very well.
Gordon from SCA, which used to be in my working site.
Ah Kiong, same dept as Mus~ under Billy.
First to KO was him, sure funny!
Last not least, my 80% drunken face.
The night ended quite scary when my friend dropped by and get a drink.
Oh well, move on.
Impromptu meet up with Marisa to West Coast Park for sunset.
So wasted that it was a cloudy evening. Didnt get to see the sun.
However, we still managed to see the sky colour gradually change.
Shortly after this photo was taken, it started to drizzle.
What a shame.
Went Sushi Express with the bride-to-be at Clementi after her wedding discussion yesterday.
Lucky day to see my favourite dish.
YUMSSSSSS.
Met up with Ian after I was done settling the west side stuff.
The 'awesome' prata he said that was near his place was closed.. so he drove me over to casuarina for PRATA!
We had one plain, one egg and one cheese.
Obviously i loved the cheese one.
The egg was good!
Oh, the plain was WOW!
Dont get deceived by the average ugly-looking prata.
Ended the night with a journey to locate this piece of heaven.
Would be better if it's not cloudy and more wind around.
Nontheless, it's awesome!
Great heart-to-heart talk place and of course, dating place.
That sums up a week.
Time to go JB for a little walk with Len now.
Tuesday, 28 April 2015
Long time no see
I nearly got lost finding my way to do a blog post.
Is it me or was there really changes? haha.
I am surprised, in fact.. very surprised to know that there's actually readers.
Although you guys dont come everyday or weekly or whatever, at least i know my posts are being read!
Eeling~ I know you are stalking me on a quite regular basis~ Hahaha!
I only recently saw your comment that was posted quite some time ago.
These few days have been quite interesting for me.
Friends that have stopped contacting since Sec sch graduation started forming groupchats to arrange for meetups and stuff.
Meeting new friends through other friends, then they brought friends and ya-da.
It's either i'm a real social butterfly or i just click very well with these new friends.
Wow, it really amaze me how our thoughts are similar and we always read each other's minds.
Just remind us once in a while that it's only the 3rd or 4th we're meeting up. haha!
Recently I have been hanging out quite a fair bit with Gen, Alton and Len. Always playing overnight mahjong, planning to go overseas together and stuff. This coming weekend, we're going JB for a short trip as well. It feels good to hang out with Len. Our perspective is very similar and we are the same age! At least i wont feel like a lightbulb when we're out with the Gen/Alton couple.
Had the chance to witness many couples getting together, quarreling, breaking up, etc.. makes me wonder. Why did you even get together in the first place? You used to like him because he takes very good care of you. Couple months later, you break up with him because you finding him over-possessive. Isn't this ironic? The reason you chose him in the first place, is the reason that you use to break up. Is relationship all about spices of life? Or is it just a game/entertainment?
Sometimes I think to myself.. what is a relationship for? What is it about? How does it feel like to like someone that likes you back? I think all I ever did was to fool around people's mind that I have interest on a certain person. It's an entertainment for myself. I like to keep myself busy, mentally and physically. Treating a specific person well to understand his/her likes and dislikes is something I want to achieve. Why? No reason. I just needed an aim. I dont go around confessing 'feelings' or play the game of boyfriend/girlfriend with anyone. I believe in Karma.
If the day you ever see me call a guy 'boyfriend', it means i have totally moved on and learnt to embrace life. Till that day comes, I will remain in my own world where nobody.. not even myself, will know what is going on. Since secondary school till now, I kept myself so busy and tired that there are so many times I feel like i am going to faint right on the spot or within 15 minutes if i'm not on the bed. Working days and nights in a row really works very well to keep your mind of everything.
Vending anger by cutting myself, drinking cough mixtures, spamming alcohol and get dead-drunk.. all these have stopped. I always tell myself to stop, always.. but it always fail as well. I have stopped doing these since CNY this year. However, I hate the fact that I still keep a penknife in my everyday-bag for any emergency. What kind of emergency? 'Cut-to-feel' emergency. There are times when i am very disappointed in myself, angry at myself or whatsoever, my hands would shake and I cannot do anything but breathe. It can get so bad that I am unable to even feel my own hands. The only way to feel again, was to cut.
There are alot of times I feel so lousy at work yet I can't talk to anyone about it. Who can understand my pain at work? None of my friends know how stressful it is to work, they only know how stressful it is to have exams and tests. Trust me, it's nothing. I dont want to tell any of my close friends because I know they will get worried. I rather I handle it alone than to burden other people, since they wont understand my job anyway. Working in a warehouse sounds easy. Just count the things that comes in and send these out. Yeap, easier said than done.
Everyday I go to work, praying hard that I can finish up everything by end working time. Other than processing orders, I have to look out for my team members' progress.. I have to look out for anything that can go wrong, I have to check randomly on my team if they are doing their job. I have to beware of any hidden arrows that might come shooting my back without me knowing. I am sick and tired of this adulthood. Why can't I just be a normal student to take my full time degree? Why? End of the day, no matter happy, stressed or upset.. I still face it alone. I yearn so hard for a listening ear that would understand. Will the day ever come?
Caitlin
Is it me or was there really changes? haha.
I am surprised, in fact.. very surprised to know that there's actually readers.
Although you guys dont come everyday or weekly or whatever, at least i know my posts are being read!
Eeling~ I know you are stalking me on a quite regular basis~ Hahaha!
I only recently saw your comment that was posted quite some time ago.
These few days have been quite interesting for me.
Friends that have stopped contacting since Sec sch graduation started forming groupchats to arrange for meetups and stuff.
Meeting new friends through other friends, then they brought friends and ya-da.
It's either i'm a real social butterfly or i just click very well with these new friends.
Wow, it really amaze me how our thoughts are similar and we always read each other's minds.
Just remind us once in a while that it's only the 3rd or 4th we're meeting up. haha!
Recently I have been hanging out quite a fair bit with Gen, Alton and Len. Always playing overnight mahjong, planning to go overseas together and stuff. This coming weekend, we're going JB for a short trip as well. It feels good to hang out with Len. Our perspective is very similar and we are the same age! At least i wont feel like a lightbulb when we're out with the Gen/Alton couple.
Had the chance to witness many couples getting together, quarreling, breaking up, etc.. makes me wonder. Why did you even get together in the first place? You used to like him because he takes very good care of you. Couple months later, you break up with him because you finding him over-possessive. Isn't this ironic? The reason you chose him in the first place, is the reason that you use to break up. Is relationship all about spices of life? Or is it just a game/entertainment?
Sometimes I think to myself.. what is a relationship for? What is it about? How does it feel like to like someone that likes you back? I think all I ever did was to fool around people's mind that I have interest on a certain person. It's an entertainment for myself. I like to keep myself busy, mentally and physically. Treating a specific person well to understand his/her likes and dislikes is something I want to achieve. Why? No reason. I just needed an aim. I dont go around confessing 'feelings' or play the game of boyfriend/girlfriend with anyone. I believe in Karma.
If the day you ever see me call a guy 'boyfriend', it means i have totally moved on and learnt to embrace life. Till that day comes, I will remain in my own world where nobody.. not even myself, will know what is going on. Since secondary school till now, I kept myself so busy and tired that there are so many times I feel like i am going to faint right on the spot or within 15 minutes if i'm not on the bed. Working days and nights in a row really works very well to keep your mind of everything.
Vending anger by cutting myself, drinking cough mixtures, spamming alcohol and get dead-drunk.. all these have stopped. I always tell myself to stop, always.. but it always fail as well. I have stopped doing these since CNY this year. However, I hate the fact that I still keep a penknife in my everyday-bag for any emergency. What kind of emergency? 'Cut-to-feel' emergency. There are times when i am very disappointed in myself, angry at myself or whatsoever, my hands would shake and I cannot do anything but breathe. It can get so bad that I am unable to even feel my own hands. The only way to feel again, was to cut.
There are alot of times I feel so lousy at work yet I can't talk to anyone about it. Who can understand my pain at work? None of my friends know how stressful it is to work, they only know how stressful it is to have exams and tests. Trust me, it's nothing. I dont want to tell any of my close friends because I know they will get worried. I rather I handle it alone than to burden other people, since they wont understand my job anyway. Working in a warehouse sounds easy. Just count the things that comes in and send these out. Yeap, easier said than done.
Everyday I go to work, praying hard that I can finish up everything by end working time. Other than processing orders, I have to look out for my team members' progress.. I have to look out for anything that can go wrong, I have to check randomly on my team if they are doing their job. I have to beware of any hidden arrows that might come shooting my back without me knowing. I am sick and tired of this adulthood. Why can't I just be a normal student to take my full time degree? Why? End of the day, no matter happy, stressed or upset.. I still face it alone. I yearn so hard for a listening ear that would understand. Will the day ever come?
Caitlin
Saturday, 7 February 2015
Valentines Day soon!
Shall dedicate a Vday post on a later day when i'm done with my vday drawing.
I did it again, cos the stress was too much for me. Actually, it isn't alot.. i just have to keep cool and organise my thoughts and work.
I really want to find a solution, but there's a limit of things i can do out of warehouse.
Everything relies on physical documents and their network.. must think of a way..
Time to see the overview instead of focusing on orders.
Spent most of my off days sleeping and rotting, time to find a new hobby to kill time during off days.
Met up with my god-bro to accompany him to study at nearby mac this evening.. and i was late for a good 2 hours, cos i was still sleeping. Bad me.
While he was studying.. i started on the book i bought recently at my workplace's warehouse sales.
The Energy Bus by Jon Gordon.
Really inspiring and interesting book.
Started on my old interest again, drawing.. or rather doodling. Doodle art attract me well ever since i was exposed to it. shall do some interesting ones soon.
Listening to Qin Bin Ma Yong - Part 2
That strong chinese tradition classical. Love it. Reminds me of the concert I had with NUSCO last year. Those music days..All gone.
Caitlin
I did it again, cos the stress was too much for me. Actually, it isn't alot.. i just have to keep cool and organise my thoughts and work.
I really want to find a solution, but there's a limit of things i can do out of warehouse.
Everything relies on physical documents and their network.. must think of a way..
Time to see the overview instead of focusing on orders.
Spent most of my off days sleeping and rotting, time to find a new hobby to kill time during off days.
Met up with my god-bro to accompany him to study at nearby mac this evening.. and i was late for a good 2 hours, cos i was still sleeping. Bad me.
While he was studying.. i started on the book i bought recently at my workplace's warehouse sales.
The Energy Bus by Jon Gordon.
Really inspiring and interesting book.
Started on my old interest again, drawing.. or rather doodling. Doodle art attract me well ever since i was exposed to it. shall do some interesting ones soon.
Listening to Qin Bin Ma Yong - Part 2
That strong chinese tradition classical. Love it. Reminds me of the concert I had with NUSCO last year. Those music days..All gone.
Caitlin
Friday, 30 January 2015
Day 150
Exactly 150th working day..
Work is getting better, but not to the expectations yet.
whenever something goes wrong, i feel very bad. Like it is all and always my fault.
I dont even know how to handle my colleagues, it wasnt as easy as my other jobs. Perhaps it's the age, experience or even gender.. or maybe i'm just lenient. I dont know, i dont know what I can do.
while i try and figure a way out, i am just a normal staff with extra complaints and stress to handle.. talk about stress man..
so many times i want to turn back to how i dealt with stress.. so many times i had the urge to hold on to the penknife.. so many times..
I've stopped smoking because I wanted a change in my life. I dont want to remember of the bad habits i had for the past few years. I want to handle things like adults do. Not to turn to cutting, smoking or drinking.
my perseverance is holding up, but for how long.. i have no idea. Im trying my best, my very best. The temptation of cutting is strong.. very strong.
perhaps im just too immature for all these. Maybe it wasnt for me, or maybe not the right time. Sometimes i just want to hide and cry all i wan. I want to behave like a child, i want to feel loved in a family. I want to be surrounded by friends and do silly things together.
Growing up is hard. Everytime i think of my friends studying and here i am, working.. i wonder why did i take this path.. would things have been different? Would i be in designing, hospitality, events... or would i be doing other things..
suddenly feel so lost. Lost of direction. Like im spending my days away, working hard and not smart. Like years of education gone to waste because this immature brain of mine is not growing as fast as i need it to be.
Im drowning.. in fear. Very demoralised.
Caitlin Soh
Work is getting better, but not to the expectations yet.
whenever something goes wrong, i feel very bad. Like it is all and always my fault.
I dont even know how to handle my colleagues, it wasnt as easy as my other jobs. Perhaps it's the age, experience or even gender.. or maybe i'm just lenient. I dont know, i dont know what I can do.
while i try and figure a way out, i am just a normal staff with extra complaints and stress to handle.. talk about stress man..
so many times i want to turn back to how i dealt with stress.. so many times i had the urge to hold on to the penknife.. so many times..
I've stopped smoking because I wanted a change in my life. I dont want to remember of the bad habits i had for the past few years. I want to handle things like adults do. Not to turn to cutting, smoking or drinking.
my perseverance is holding up, but for how long.. i have no idea. Im trying my best, my very best. The temptation of cutting is strong.. very strong.
perhaps im just too immature for all these. Maybe it wasnt for me, or maybe not the right time. Sometimes i just want to hide and cry all i wan. I want to behave like a child, i want to feel loved in a family. I want to be surrounded by friends and do silly things together.
Growing up is hard. Everytime i think of my friends studying and here i am, working.. i wonder why did i take this path.. would things have been different? Would i be in designing, hospitality, events... or would i be doing other things..
suddenly feel so lost. Lost of direction. Like im spending my days away, working hard and not smart. Like years of education gone to waste because this immature brain of mine is not growing as fast as i need it to be.
Im drowning.. in fear. Very demoralised.
Caitlin Soh
Sunday, 11 January 2015
New year post reports LATE
Stopped blogging since months ago.. suddenly had this feel to start blogging again, so here I am.
2014 is finally over, so many things happened in this year.
I completed my Diploma (not with flying colours) with great authentic friends, at least I know who I trusted correctly and who I did not.
Poly friends dont usually stop contacting after Poly, it's how you make things work and their mentality when they were friends with you.
I'm not one to put in effort for friends whom I doubt they would stay, but some made the effort. We dont usually meet up, but we do it once in a blue blue moon.
I stopped playing music, in all kinds of aspect. Trust me, E140 would be the only thing to summon me back to that world because I promised Jason. If not, nope. I believe the babies would just lie down there..
I helped an event run with the actual full timers from PICO, and it was a great success! It was fun and I made a whole group of awesome people. This group of awesome people actually involved my initial group of AWESOME people at the Changi night shift job, which we are still keep in touch. PICO staff still call me once in a while to help out in their events.
I got my first full time job and I am glad there was no interview because the C in my Career Communication dampen my spirit before I even had any interviews, not to mention any failed interviews.. Anyway, i got in and started full time on 1st Aug. Colleagues were not bad, needed a bit of mental adjustment to get used to the type of people I see and hang out with everyday. Not to mention, some little politics because they didn't like to see you at your current position or wadeva-not. I got used to it. Glad I managed to change department in mid-Oct. Not exactly heaven, but much much better than the previous. In terms of superior, environment and customer wise.. it's all much better. MUCH.
In 2015, I want to achieve things. Not in terms of career, but in terms of my personal life.
First of all, I want to start on my Degree. Planning to take my degree in UniSIM as a part time student, whether or not I can managed.. I will still give it a try.
Secondly, I want to last in my current company and not call it a quit for at least 3 years.
Third, I want to travel alone. Still thinking of where I should go.. Hk? Twn? A totally-ME time.
Yea, 3 things in 2015. Nothing much I can think of anyway..
Pretty pessi recently, no idea why either. Probably quite bad luck these days.. and I'm down with a horrible sore throat and a nerve-wrecking toothache.
Till then
Caitlin
2014 is finally over, so many things happened in this year.
I completed my Diploma (not with flying colours) with great authentic friends, at least I know who I trusted correctly and who I did not.
Poly friends dont usually stop contacting after Poly, it's how you make things work and their mentality when they were friends with you.
I'm not one to put in effort for friends whom I doubt they would stay, but some made the effort. We dont usually meet up, but we do it once in a blue blue moon.
I stopped playing music, in all kinds of aspect. Trust me, E140 would be the only thing to summon me back to that world because I promised Jason. If not, nope. I believe the babies would just lie down there..
I helped an event run with the actual full timers from PICO, and it was a great success! It was fun and I made a whole group of awesome people. This group of awesome people actually involved my initial group of AWESOME people at the Changi night shift job, which we are still keep in touch. PICO staff still call me once in a while to help out in their events.
I got my first full time job and I am glad there was no interview because the C in my Career Communication dampen my spirit before I even had any interviews, not to mention any failed interviews.. Anyway, i got in and started full time on 1st Aug. Colleagues were not bad, needed a bit of mental adjustment to get used to the type of people I see and hang out with everyday. Not to mention, some little politics because they didn't like to see you at your current position or wadeva-not. I got used to it. Glad I managed to change department in mid-Oct. Not exactly heaven, but much much better than the previous. In terms of superior, environment and customer wise.. it's all much better. MUCH.
In 2015, I want to achieve things. Not in terms of career, but in terms of my personal life.
First of all, I want to start on my Degree. Planning to take my degree in UniSIM as a part time student, whether or not I can managed.. I will still give it a try.
Secondly, I want to last in my current company and not call it a quit for at least 3 years.
Third, I want to travel alone. Still thinking of where I should go.. Hk? Twn? A totally-ME time.
Yea, 3 things in 2015. Nothing much I can think of anyway..
Pretty pessi recently, no idea why either. Probably quite bad luck these days.. and I'm down with a horrible sore throat and a nerve-wrecking toothache.
Till then
Caitlin
Monday, 13 October 2014
Virgo in a Nutshell
Virgo Strength Keywords:
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise
Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering
Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.
Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.
Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise
Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering
Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.
Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.
Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.
Friday, 25 July 2014
You're Somebody that I used to know
Feels good to be in contact with you again.. but those memories gushed back the moment you apologise. And silly me, i went to reread the blog posts of that period of time.
I will constantly remind myself not to fall again. I know the feeling amd it sucks.
The answer Mere told me that night, I will remember. I do not wish to repeat the same thing again.
Hopefully we are meeting for a meal on Sunday, it's been really long since we last met. As a friend, i really miss him.
Caitlin
I will constantly remind myself not to fall again. I know the feeling amd it sucks.
The answer Mere told me that night, I will remember. I do not wish to repeat the same thing again.
Hopefully we are meeting for a meal on Sunday, it's been really long since we last met. As a friend, i really miss him.
Caitlin
Wednesday, 2 April 2014
Friendship
Sometimes i dont understand why people always say male and female can never be just friends..
These few months, Kenny and I are rather close.
We first met in 2002, after which he graduated in 2006.
We met by chance in 2008 during my MOE camp at SCH.
That was when we started to talk like friends.
we are supper buddies, smoking buddies, music buddies, colleagues, ensemble mates.. we are friends.
Maybe we are hanging out too much, people are starting to talk.
I know wad's going on.. even if i say anything, these nonsense wont stop.
Seriously, if i really like him and want to be together..
I would have done something years ago.. why wait till now?
I dont even care if he has a girlfriend or not.
If he does, then i rather we get to know each other and hang out together.
Isn't that better? better than everyone saying bad things bout each other and make friendships sour?
I know what is going on.. but i will not utter a word until he says anything.
but bear in mind, i would not be there if anything fails.
Caitlin.
These few months, Kenny and I are rather close.
We first met in 2002, after which he graduated in 2006.
We met by chance in 2008 during my MOE camp at SCH.
That was when we started to talk like friends.
we are supper buddies, smoking buddies, music buddies, colleagues, ensemble mates.. we are friends.
Maybe we are hanging out too much, people are starting to talk.
I know wad's going on.. even if i say anything, these nonsense wont stop.
Seriously, if i really like him and want to be together..
I would have done something years ago.. why wait till now?
I dont even care if he has a girlfriend or not.
If he does, then i rather we get to know each other and hang out together.
Isn't that better? better than everyone saying bad things bout each other and make friendships sour?
I know what is going on.. but i will not utter a word until he says anything.
but bear in mind, i would not be there if anything fails.
Caitlin.
Friday, 7 March 2014
Warning
28th March 2014 would be the day I officially let go of everything.. you will be my past and always be the past.
No one shall ask, no one shall speak of it.
These 3 years were my lowest point in life.
Drinking, getting drunk, cutting, slitting, smoking..
everything i did to get over you.
Things that may seem stupid seems logical at those moment.
Recently, i've watched a couple movies and it made me wonder..
was i down with depression? It was scary.
The way they expressed the feelings of the actor was so detailed, it really felt so.
It brought back those memories and thoughts i had when i made my decisions to do those certain things.
It was the ecstasy.
These shall remain as past and foolish choice of my own.
I blame no one but myself.
Addiction is however an addiction.
I took so long to get over the addiction of cutting and slitting myself.
I may still do it once in a while, but the temptation is no longer as great as last time.
I made efforts to stop and quit.
Well, determination is the key.
And the issue is, i dont have enough.
May the day be good and end with a wonderful smile.
Caitlin
No one shall ask, no one shall speak of it.
These 3 years were my lowest point in life.
Drinking, getting drunk, cutting, slitting, smoking..
everything i did to get over you.
Things that may seem stupid seems logical at those moment.
Recently, i've watched a couple movies and it made me wonder..
was i down with depression? It was scary.
The way they expressed the feelings of the actor was so detailed, it really felt so.
It brought back those memories and thoughts i had when i made my decisions to do those certain things.
It was the ecstasy.
These shall remain as past and foolish choice of my own.
I blame no one but myself.
Addiction is however an addiction.
I took so long to get over the addiction of cutting and slitting myself.
I may still do it once in a while, but the temptation is no longer as great as last time.
I made efforts to stop and quit.
Well, determination is the key.
And the issue is, i dont have enough.
May the day be good and end with a wonderful smile.
Caitlin
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