Time to quit and move on

Working here used to be a joy.
I look forward to work everyday.
Regardless of how hard the work is, I look forward.
I am willing to come back and work even though I am on MC.
That was how much I loved my work.

Loved.

After 1 year and 8 months, I decided I've had enough of this place.
I am on a job hunt again.
Spamming resumes to all sort of jobs, like planner, tourism and even customer service.

http://jobsearch.about.com/od/resignation/fl/Warning-Sings-You-Need-a-New-Job.htm
Strike All.

I cannot deny that I learnt a lot here.
But, not in terms of operations.
I learnt how to hold my anger and not vend on anyone.
I learnt how to contain my emotions and smile at the rest.

Still, I have not kicked my bad habit of cutting.

I am just like an elastic band.
I can stretch far and wide, but..
If you keep on stretching without considering about my condition.. I will snap.

Like I said, I don't vend on anyone.
I vend on myself.
Cutting, drinking.. I blame myself for being such a weakling, unable to withstand whatever they want.
I have to admit, I am not as strong as everyone think I am.

Sometimes, you have to catch the seriousness in my joke.
Sometimes, my joke is the truth.
If no one believe, then so be it.
Don't say I never mentioned.
Problem is, I did and no one believed.

I don't understand why should there be politics.
Everyone is out to earn money together, why make life so difficult.
Why frame ppl to earn some unseen credits.
Why can't you adults help each other and improve together.

To be honest, after working for this period of time..
I still don't have the sense of being this company's staff.
I hate it when people give you the 'Wow' look.
No people, look. It's no as good as you think it is.

I am not tasked to do things that is my responsibility because I have no access to company's intranet.
I have no access to company's stuff despite my position.

I am tired of thinking how things could have been better.
No point thinking so much anyway.

Shall rest my case and find a new job, perhaps a boyfriend too :p