Working here used to be a joy.
I look forward to work everyday.
Regardless of how hard the work is, I look forward.
I am willing to come back and work even though I am on MC.
That was how much I loved my work.
Loved.
After 1 year and 8 months, I decided I've had enough of this place.
I am on a job hunt again.
Spamming resumes to all sort of jobs, like planner, tourism and even customer service.
http://jobsearch.about.com/od/resignation/fl/Warning-Sings-You-Need-a-New-Job.htm
Strike All.
I cannot deny that I learnt a lot here.
But, not in terms of operations.
I learnt how to hold my anger and not vend on anyone.
I learnt how to contain my emotions and smile at the rest.
Still, I have not kicked my bad habit of cutting.
I am just like an elastic band.
I can stretch far and wide, but..
If you keep on stretching without considering about my condition.. I will snap.
Like I said, I don't vend on anyone.
I vend on myself.
Cutting, drinking.. I blame myself for being such a weakling, unable to withstand whatever they want.
I have to admit, I am not as strong as everyone think I am.
Sometimes, you have to catch the seriousness in my joke.
Sometimes, my joke is the truth.
If no one believe, then so be it.
Don't say I never mentioned.
Problem is, I did and no one believed.
I don't understand why should there be politics.
Everyone is out to earn money together, why make life so difficult.
Why frame ppl to earn some unseen credits.
Why can't you adults help each other and improve together.
To be honest, after working for this period of time..
I still don't have the sense of being this company's staff.
I hate it when people give you the 'Wow' look.
No people, look. It's no as good as you think it is.
I am not tasked to do things that is my responsibility because I have no access to company's intranet.
I have no access to company's stuff despite my position.
I am tired of thinking how things could have been better.
No point thinking so much anyway.
Shall rest my case and find a new job, perhaps a boyfriend too :p
Friday, 22 April 2016
Tuesday, 19 January 2016
Lovesick
Lovesick is like homesick.
Homesick people are away from home but want to be home.
Lovesick people are away from love and want to be in love.
You know you are in trouble when you experience the following:
- Smile to yourself for no reason
- Overreacting with your imagination (Esp. Female)
- Keeping little things as memories
A single touch will make your heart flutter.
A single word can make your heart skip a beat.
Endless memories to remember.
Worse when you have a good memory.
The smile, smell, reaction, expression.. everything.
Feeling like a schoolgirl again.
Homesick people are away from home but want to be home.
Lovesick people are away from love and want to be in love.
You know you are in trouble when you experience the following:
- Smile to yourself for no reason
- Overreacting with your imagination (Esp. Female)
- Keeping little things as memories
A single touch will make your heart flutter.
A single word can make your heart skip a beat.
Endless memories to remember.
Worse when you have a good memory.
The smile, smell, reaction, expression.. everything.
Feeling like a schoolgirl again.
Monday, 4 January 2016
Working life (POV of a 21yo)
Society says that we are the strawberry generation.
Damaged with a little hard pinch.
Who are we to blame? The schools for not teaching us how to survive this society?
Are we not too educated in terms of words and not life?
After 3 years of polytechnic studies and working for going two years, I still do not understand why is Amaths or Engineering maths relevant to our work.
Do you mean my customers or my boss might suddenly ask me what is sin x?
At the age of 21, I have to handle 6 staff in one department.
Yea, sounds easy right. What if I say these 6 are worse than handling a class of primary school students..
I have been teaching students of all age since I was in upper primary. I was even given chances to teach elderly on a one-to-one basis. None of those made me as stressed as I am now.
Like my colleague told me, times have changed. Staff don't follow instruction just because they are given instructions. They need reasons for the instructions.
For the past 4 years of working as event coordinator, part timers and ad-hocs, I have never met such unreasonable human beings before. Maybe my luck have ran out. My team is fucked up.
Being a short tempered and rebellious child since young, I have to admit that my tolerance level is so high that even my own friends are shocked.
After stepping into the society, I realized.. Singapore education is not helping students blend into the society. After my first year of work, having internship with the most fucked up student seems like a piece of cake.
Things I used to do when I'm upset or stressed, are not allowed because I am in the society.
I stopped drinking, because I always have work the next day.
I stopped hanging out late, because I always have to wake up early the next day.
I cannot vend my emotions on social media, because I cannot talk bad about my colleagues or company.
I cannot meet my friends often, because I am always tired by the time I end work and reached my house area.
Weekends, public holidays and leaves are all used to replenish sleep.
However, your body clock is so screwed that you will still wake up very early.
You have hard time falling back to sleep but your brain is refusing to move an inch.
So many things to express, so many things to cry over..
Hate looking so strong, my insides are crumpling down.
I seriously need a drink. HAIS.
Damaged with a little hard pinch.
Who are we to blame? The schools for not teaching us how to survive this society?
Are we not too educated in terms of words and not life?
After 3 years of polytechnic studies and working for going two years, I still do not understand why is Amaths or Engineering maths relevant to our work.
Do you mean my customers or my boss might suddenly ask me what is sin x?
At the age of 21, I have to handle 6 staff in one department.
Yea, sounds easy right. What if I say these 6 are worse than handling a class of primary school students..
I have been teaching students of all age since I was in upper primary. I was even given chances to teach elderly on a one-to-one basis. None of those made me as stressed as I am now.
Like my colleague told me, times have changed. Staff don't follow instruction just because they are given instructions. They need reasons for the instructions.
For the past 4 years of working as event coordinator, part timers and ad-hocs, I have never met such unreasonable human beings before. Maybe my luck have ran out. My team is fucked up.
Being a short tempered and rebellious child since young, I have to admit that my tolerance level is so high that even my own friends are shocked.
After stepping into the society, I realized.. Singapore education is not helping students blend into the society. After my first year of work, having internship with the most fucked up student seems like a piece of cake.
Things I used to do when I'm upset or stressed, are not allowed because I am in the society.
I stopped drinking, because I always have work the next day.
I stopped hanging out late, because I always have to wake up early the next day.
I cannot vend my emotions on social media, because I cannot talk bad about my colleagues or company.
I cannot meet my friends often, because I am always tired by the time I end work and reached my house area.
Weekends, public holidays and leaves are all used to replenish sleep.
However, your body clock is so screwed that you will still wake up very early.
You have hard time falling back to sleep but your brain is refusing to move an inch.
So many things to express, so many things to cry over..
Hate looking so strong, my insides are crumpling down.
I seriously need a drink. HAIS.
Thursday, 3 December 2015
Keppel Volunteer - National Gallery Museum
Last Monday was the official opening of the National Gallery Museum!
Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.
The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.
Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.
As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!
Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.
After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.
As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.
Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.
We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!
Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.
That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.
Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.
We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!
Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.
Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.
Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.
After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!
We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.
After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!
No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.
Looking forward to the next volunteer event!
Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.
The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.
Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.
As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!
Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.
After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.
As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.
Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.
We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!
Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.
That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.
Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.
We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!
Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.
Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.
Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.
After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!
We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.
After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!
No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.
Looking forward to the next volunteer event!
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