Shall dedicate a Vday post on a later day when i'm done with my vday drawing.
I did it again, cos the stress was too much for me. Actually, it isn't alot.. i just have to keep cool and organise my thoughts and work.
I really want to find a solution, but there's a limit of things i can do out of warehouse.
Everything relies on physical documents and their network.. must think of a way..
Time to see the overview instead of focusing on orders.
Spent most of my off days sleeping and rotting, time to find a new hobby to kill time during off days.
Met up with my god-bro to accompany him to study at nearby mac this evening.. and i was late for a good 2 hours, cos i was still sleeping. Bad me.
While he was studying.. i started on the book i bought recently at my workplace's warehouse sales.
The Energy Bus by Jon Gordon.
Really inspiring and interesting book.
Started on my old interest again, drawing.. or rather doodling. Doodle art attract me well ever since i was exposed to it. shall do some interesting ones soon.
Listening to Qin Bin Ma Yong - Part 2
That strong chinese tradition classical. Love it. Reminds me of the concert I had with NUSCO last year. Those music days..All gone.
Caitlin
Saturday, 7 February 2015
Friday, 30 January 2015
Day 150
Exactly 150th working day..
Work is getting better, but not to the expectations yet.
whenever something goes wrong, i feel very bad. Like it is all and always my fault.
I dont even know how to handle my colleagues, it wasnt as easy as my other jobs. Perhaps it's the age, experience or even gender.. or maybe i'm just lenient. I dont know, i dont know what I can do.
while i try and figure a way out, i am just a normal staff with extra complaints and stress to handle.. talk about stress man..
so many times i want to turn back to how i dealt with stress.. so many times i had the urge to hold on to the penknife.. so many times..
I've stopped smoking because I wanted a change in my life. I dont want to remember of the bad habits i had for the past few years. I want to handle things like adults do. Not to turn to cutting, smoking or drinking.
my perseverance is holding up, but for how long.. i have no idea. Im trying my best, my very best. The temptation of cutting is strong.. very strong.
perhaps im just too immature for all these. Maybe it wasnt for me, or maybe not the right time. Sometimes i just want to hide and cry all i wan. I want to behave like a child, i want to feel loved in a family. I want to be surrounded by friends and do silly things together.
Growing up is hard. Everytime i think of my friends studying and here i am, working.. i wonder why did i take this path.. would things have been different? Would i be in designing, hospitality, events... or would i be doing other things..
suddenly feel so lost. Lost of direction. Like im spending my days away, working hard and not smart. Like years of education gone to waste because this immature brain of mine is not growing as fast as i need it to be.
Im drowning.. in fear. Very demoralised.
Caitlin Soh
Work is getting better, but not to the expectations yet.
whenever something goes wrong, i feel very bad. Like it is all and always my fault.
I dont even know how to handle my colleagues, it wasnt as easy as my other jobs. Perhaps it's the age, experience or even gender.. or maybe i'm just lenient. I dont know, i dont know what I can do.
while i try and figure a way out, i am just a normal staff with extra complaints and stress to handle.. talk about stress man..
so many times i want to turn back to how i dealt with stress.. so many times i had the urge to hold on to the penknife.. so many times..
I've stopped smoking because I wanted a change in my life. I dont want to remember of the bad habits i had for the past few years. I want to handle things like adults do. Not to turn to cutting, smoking or drinking.
my perseverance is holding up, but for how long.. i have no idea. Im trying my best, my very best. The temptation of cutting is strong.. very strong.
perhaps im just too immature for all these. Maybe it wasnt for me, or maybe not the right time. Sometimes i just want to hide and cry all i wan. I want to behave like a child, i want to feel loved in a family. I want to be surrounded by friends and do silly things together.
Growing up is hard. Everytime i think of my friends studying and here i am, working.. i wonder why did i take this path.. would things have been different? Would i be in designing, hospitality, events... or would i be doing other things..
suddenly feel so lost. Lost of direction. Like im spending my days away, working hard and not smart. Like years of education gone to waste because this immature brain of mine is not growing as fast as i need it to be.
Im drowning.. in fear. Very demoralised.
Caitlin Soh
Sunday, 11 January 2015
New year post reports LATE
Stopped blogging since months ago.. suddenly had this feel to start blogging again, so here I am.
2014 is finally over, so many things happened in this year.
I completed my Diploma (not with flying colours) with great authentic friends, at least I know who I trusted correctly and who I did not.
Poly friends dont usually stop contacting after Poly, it's how you make things work and their mentality when they were friends with you.
I'm not one to put in effort for friends whom I doubt they would stay, but some made the effort. We dont usually meet up, but we do it once in a blue blue moon.
I stopped playing music, in all kinds of aspect. Trust me, E140 would be the only thing to summon me back to that world because I promised Jason. If not, nope. I believe the babies would just lie down there..
I helped an event run with the actual full timers from PICO, and it was a great success! It was fun and I made a whole group of awesome people. This group of awesome people actually involved my initial group of AWESOME people at the Changi night shift job, which we are still keep in touch. PICO staff still call me once in a while to help out in their events.
I got my first full time job and I am glad there was no interview because the C in my Career Communication dampen my spirit before I even had any interviews, not to mention any failed interviews.. Anyway, i got in and started full time on 1st Aug. Colleagues were not bad, needed a bit of mental adjustment to get used to the type of people I see and hang out with everyday. Not to mention, some little politics because they didn't like to see you at your current position or wadeva-not. I got used to it. Glad I managed to change department in mid-Oct. Not exactly heaven, but much much better than the previous. In terms of superior, environment and customer wise.. it's all much better. MUCH.
In 2015, I want to achieve things. Not in terms of career, but in terms of my personal life.
First of all, I want to start on my Degree. Planning to take my degree in UniSIM as a part time student, whether or not I can managed.. I will still give it a try.
Secondly, I want to last in my current company and not call it a quit for at least 3 years.
Third, I want to travel alone. Still thinking of where I should go.. Hk? Twn? A totally-ME time.
Yea, 3 things in 2015. Nothing much I can think of anyway..
Pretty pessi recently, no idea why either. Probably quite bad luck these days.. and I'm down with a horrible sore throat and a nerve-wrecking toothache.
Till then
Caitlin
2014 is finally over, so many things happened in this year.
I completed my Diploma (not with flying colours) with great authentic friends, at least I know who I trusted correctly and who I did not.
Poly friends dont usually stop contacting after Poly, it's how you make things work and their mentality when they were friends with you.
I'm not one to put in effort for friends whom I doubt they would stay, but some made the effort. We dont usually meet up, but we do it once in a blue blue moon.
I stopped playing music, in all kinds of aspect. Trust me, E140 would be the only thing to summon me back to that world because I promised Jason. If not, nope. I believe the babies would just lie down there..
I helped an event run with the actual full timers from PICO, and it was a great success! It was fun and I made a whole group of awesome people. This group of awesome people actually involved my initial group of AWESOME people at the Changi night shift job, which we are still keep in touch. PICO staff still call me once in a while to help out in their events.
I got my first full time job and I am glad there was no interview because the C in my Career Communication dampen my spirit before I even had any interviews, not to mention any failed interviews.. Anyway, i got in and started full time on 1st Aug. Colleagues were not bad, needed a bit of mental adjustment to get used to the type of people I see and hang out with everyday. Not to mention, some little politics because they didn't like to see you at your current position or wadeva-not. I got used to it. Glad I managed to change department in mid-Oct. Not exactly heaven, but much much better than the previous. In terms of superior, environment and customer wise.. it's all much better. MUCH.
In 2015, I want to achieve things. Not in terms of career, but in terms of my personal life.
First of all, I want to start on my Degree. Planning to take my degree in UniSIM as a part time student, whether or not I can managed.. I will still give it a try.
Secondly, I want to last in my current company and not call it a quit for at least 3 years.
Third, I want to travel alone. Still thinking of where I should go.. Hk? Twn? A totally-ME time.
Yea, 3 things in 2015. Nothing much I can think of anyway..
Pretty pessi recently, no idea why either. Probably quite bad luck these days.. and I'm down with a horrible sore throat and a nerve-wrecking toothache.
Till then
Caitlin
Monday, 13 October 2014
Virgo in a Nutshell
Virgo Strength Keywords:
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise
Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering
Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.
Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.
Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise
Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering
Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.
Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.
Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.
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