Cramps are women's worse enermy

Yeah, you read that right.
Cramps are totally a mf-ing bitch, i swear!
It makes you feel scared everywhere at anytime.
Scared of staining your clothes, the chairs, scared of bumping in ghost cos you are 'dirty' and wadeva bullshit nots.
I SWEAR IT'S DAMN ANNOYING.
SUPPORT SEX CHANGE PLS.

Damn. I'm chilled.
These few days has been hell..
Sigh.. Poor Meredith have to entertain this annoying soul in me.
Too hungry, too cold, too thirsty, too lazy, too bored.. and wad else~~
Everything under the sun.. i'm complaining.. ):
this internship is killing me..
and wad else?
i'm left with 2 sticks for tmr! AND OH DAMN.
I forgot to take money from dad. tada.
No need buy cigg liao.
Good job -.-
I'm gonna be sooooo moodless tmr.

Alright.

Week One Day 1 : Formal top with Grey cardi coat(which apparently i've removed)

Week One Day 2 : No more formal! :D

Week One Day 3:

Week One Day 4:

 

That's all for now.. ):

Loves,

Caitlin

Internship at HDB BRI

Internship has been boring..

Boring is an understatement! My goodness.

On the first day of work, there’s nothing much we can do.

They just brought us around and let us know of the place.. hmm..

 

Day 2, which is today.. is bad~

We were assigned to do their green mark certification.. and i swear it’s the worse module in my year 2 life!

Well, it’s one of the worse..

Hello, I had a D for that!!

And now, internship.. AGAIN!

GOSH.

What’s worse..?

It was raining during lunch break..and so.....

We skipped lunch.

There’s snacks and wadeva not at the pantry..but, i might well dont eat right~

Sian.

Ultimate sian.

My partner went off to eat the pastries.. but well, nahh.

Life just couldn’t suck more.

But since the place is sooo near to my house.. i got not much complain :/

I’m hungry. Very hungry. I think i’m gonna die soon.

Shouldn’t have skipped breakfast.. now i’m hungry. VERY HUNGRY.

Sucks to be me.

Bought two tigers on the way home ysd..

Childhood toys, haha!

But they are SO adorable.

How can one resist! GAH!

 

Smoking and drinking cold water is my meals.

 

Loves,

Caitlin

Aim and Motivate

Had a rushed dinner with Jack today..
work ended damn early today, so i ended up at Starbucks for an hour or so with my candy crush :D
Met up to take his erhu and had Soup Spoon for dinner..
Damn filling..
Actually, i didnt eat much..but a salad and some soup.
He totally ruined my mood for eating with the news of the china bitch. .___.

He mentioned that he's going ShenZhen for this competition in July!
and it's smth like SYF, where everyone gets an award like gold, silver or bronze.
It sounds great! Just like grading.. haha!
I believe the cert helps to build up our music portfolio.
So tempted to go!
Maybe next year? :D
Can reward myself to a trip and gain some experience at the same time..
Travelling alone sounds damn fun!

Speaking of which! I forgotten to meet my senior.. oops!
She bought wine for me, although it's her birthday :x
 and i feel abit bad for not buying her anything :/
Maybe next month! :D
A free meal in JB? :p

Tomorrow's gonna be my last day of work in Beauty Empire..
Gonna miss the people there..
All so nice and sweet :D

Shall head for bed now..
So tired yet unwilling to sleep :/
Shall boost myself with the machines tomorrow :D

Loves,
Caitlin

Disappointed with me and myself

I guess she would be disappointed too..
After so many years of nurturing me in both pri and sec sch..
I still ended up the way she warned me.

She used to put most of her focus on me..
During breaks, she would ask me to stay back and practice more with her.
1 to 1 coaching used to be a torture, until i understand her motive.
She wanted me to be a good player.
Well, i cant say i'm good but at least i'm the better few in my well..tpco.
nothing proud to tell her.. but well.
maybe that's why i'm..sorta avoiding her now.
and my kind teacher is noooot helping at all~
she's making me to drop by my instructor's house and pick up the maroon casing that i wan.
She's totally not helping ):
I shall brace myself and drop by SOON..

Perhaps i'm too used to ppl being disappointed with me..
Those words kept repeating..
Everywhere, every moment..

No matter how used i am.. it still hurts to know that ppl that you are concern about, are disappointed in you..
It's like piercing my heart with a sharp knife..

I still wonder.. why did i allow myself to drink, to smoke, to cut.. to do so many stupid things..
Why..

Loves,
Caitlin