Society says that we are the strawberry generation.
Damaged with a little hard pinch.
Who are we to blame? The schools for not teaching us how to survive this society?
Are we not too educated in terms of words and not life?
After 3 years of polytechnic studies and working for going two years, I still do not understand why is Amaths or Engineering maths relevant to our work.
Do you mean my customers or my boss might suddenly ask me what is sin x?
At the age of 21, I have to handle 6 staff in one department.
Yea, sounds easy right. What if I say these 6 are worse than handling a class of primary school students..
I have been teaching students of all age since I was in upper primary. I was even given chances to teach elderly on a one-to-one basis. None of those made me as stressed as I am now.
Like my colleague told me, times have changed. Staff don't follow instruction just because they are given instructions. They need reasons for the instructions.
For the past 4 years of working as event coordinator, part timers and ad-hocs, I have never met such unreasonable human beings before. Maybe my luck have ran out. My team is fucked up.
Being a short tempered and rebellious child since young, I have to admit that my tolerance level is so high that even my own friends are shocked.
After stepping into the society, I realized.. Singapore education is not helping students blend into the society. After my first year of work, having internship with the most fucked up student seems like a piece of cake.
Things I used to do when I'm upset or stressed, are not allowed because I am in the society.
I stopped drinking, because I always have work the next day.
I stopped hanging out late, because I always have to wake up early the next day.
I cannot vend my emotions on social media, because I cannot talk bad about my colleagues or company.
I cannot meet my friends often, because I am always tired by the time I end work and reached my house area.
Weekends, public holidays and leaves are all used to replenish sleep.
However, your body clock is so screwed that you will still wake up very early.
You have hard time falling back to sleep but your brain is refusing to move an inch.
So many things to express, so many things to cry over..
Hate looking so strong, my insides are crumpling down.
I seriously need a drink. HAIS.
Monday, 4 January 2016
Thursday, 3 December 2015
Keppel Volunteer - National Gallery Museum
Last Monday was the official opening of the National Gallery Museum!
Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.
The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.
Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.
As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!
Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.
After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.
As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.
Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.
We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!
Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.
That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.
Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.
We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!
Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.
Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.
Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.
After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!
We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.
After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!
No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.
Looking forward to the next volunteer event!
Had the opportunity to see Mr. Lee Hsien Loong as he dropped by the Keppel Arts Centre in the evening while I was doing volunteer.
The kids from different schools that came over yesterday were amazing.
Art should really be nurtured from young. It is the age where children have the best imaginations and creations that we would not have thought of.
As I was helping out in the Children's Museum for a while, I had a small chat with a group of boys from Endeavour Primary. They were given a small kit that consist of 2 thick straws, some cotton strings and a thin strap to make their own creation. With these few materials, these boys made a timing bomb, a robot, a fish hook and a mini wrecking ball!
Not sure if these have to be paid when it is open to public, but I believe it would still be money well spent.
After the children were done with the activities, dinner was provided at the auditorium foyer.
It also means resting time and dinner time for the volunteers.
As we are mostly from different BUs, we seldom have the chance to meet or get to know one another. Dinner was amazing. Not because the packet food was great, but the companion was awesome. Although once in a while we have to attend to the children's needs, we had a great chat within ourselves.
Over a 30 minutes dinner break, we got to understand more about each other's job scope and environment. We even got to know each other on personal basis, and turns out that everyone is staying in the same area! After the students were dismissed and boarded their buses back to school, we are dismissed as well.
We were allowed to slowly explore the different areas in KAC. Of course, the 'children at heart' agreed to stay in the Treehouse area! I believe this is the last chance for us to explore freely and have the place to ourselves. We had fun taking pictures around the area!
Before we left the National Gallery, we dropped by the new room called 'Who's in the Woods?'. We created all sort of animals with different animal parts and coloured all sorts of colours we could and posted up to the screen.
That basically sums up our event this evening at the museum. After we left, we decided to head over to Starbucks for a cup of coffee before we call it a day.
Although this is only my first volunteer event in Keppel and I'm abit shy when I just joined, I am glad everyone enjoyed themselves during the interaction time.
We assumed the event on Monday was the last one before our standard volunteer routine starts, we were wrong!
Couple days later, we received an invitation to represent Keppel for the Meet & Greet session with our President, Dr. Tony Tan, at the National Gallery Museum. It would be on the night of the launch of carnival.
Not being unappreciative, but it would have been better if we were hosting children instead. The joy of communicating with different children in the arts centre.
Nonetheless, the few of us still enjoyed the night with our Volunteer President, our Chairman and one of the GMs. It was a night full of wefies and formal photos.
After the event, I keep annoying my friends how honoured my handphone is as it was used to capture the photos of our President, our ministers, Keppel Chairman, Mr. Milenko and some other more. Did I mention that our Chairman praised my phone cover? Hahahaha!
We had the chance to visit the galleries after the dinner reception as well. Of course, I jumped on the opportunity and visited the 'Wu Guan Zhong' gallery that I missed the previous visit as it was still not fully set up.
After the rush around the museum, we managed to catch the 10pm façade show outside the building. It was magnificent!
No coffee for that night as we were all very tired.
Looking forward to the next volunteer event!
Sunday, 22 November 2015
小幸运
It
has been more than a year. So many things have changed.
From a new colleague to lunch buddy and now to idk.
Was I too annoying that I pissed you off?
Looking back when I first joined, I didnt struggle much. There wasnt much for me to do initially anyway.
I doubt the importance of my existence.
Backstabbed for being racist when I can get along with all the staff while my colleague cant, on my first month.
I doubt my credibility.
Being disliked by my first dept customer just because I'm righteous.
I doubt the society's honesty.
After transferring to my second dept, I see a whole new range of staff. Every time they do something wrong, i doubt my ability.
I still do.
All along, i keep telling myself to hang in there because it's my first job. Everyone keep telling me, it might be because of your age. I admit age plays a part, but if no one is there to correct you or let you know the things you do is right or wrong.. then it is no longer about the age.
Sometimes I am just that dense.. I don't feel anything, and I need people to tell me in the face the purpose of something. Sorry that I am not that intelligent.
Over this one year and going 4 months, I still question myself if I am fit for this position. I really wonder if I have this job by luck or what.
For someone without knowledge in this field, I plunged in with a high but non-exec position. For someone that was not even 20 yet, this position is not even suitable.
I used to have a colleague who will send me to and fro home, and along the way.. he will keep planting positive thoughts in my head whenever I am feeling pessimistic. He left not long after I joined as a full timer. That one month plus were nothing but hopeful and joyful to me.
After I changed to my second dept, I met a colleague who was equally optimistic as the previous colleague. Someone with a higher and different type of humour.
Though it is also a new department, there is so many things to handle.. unlike my first department which is also relatively new. So many times I want to give up.
I keep wondering.. why is the new one in a new 4th party account? But I told myself, if I can survive this.. I can survive anything else.
I really don't know how long I can last though..
Putting full time work aside, I'm glad I survived my first semester as a part time student.
Just waiting for exam results to be out on 17th Dec!
While my 'school holiday' starts, I can get busy with the music recording with my Vesak peeps!
Target to finish '小幸运' recording and MV by end of the year. Abit late to catch up with the trend but well, still our first step.
Meanwhile, we are still recording our '悟' soundtrack. First attempt was not bad but quite rusty, gonna have a few more attempts before we finalise our first release of MV.
Got abit bored while staying over at Aunt's house over the weekend.. I wrote the lyrics of the song into its title, looks pretty not bad although the proportion is abit off. Just trying to self-console myself, Good attempt! Hehe.
From a new colleague to lunch buddy and now to idk.
Was I too annoying that I pissed you off?
Looking back when I first joined, I didnt struggle much. There wasnt much for me to do initially anyway.
I doubt the importance of my existence.
Backstabbed for being racist when I can get along with all the staff while my colleague cant, on my first month.
I doubt my credibility.
Being disliked by my first dept customer just because I'm righteous.
I doubt the society's honesty.
After transferring to my second dept, I see a whole new range of staff. Every time they do something wrong, i doubt my ability.
I still do.
All along, i keep telling myself to hang in there because it's my first job. Everyone keep telling me, it might be because of your age. I admit age plays a part, but if no one is there to correct you or let you know the things you do is right or wrong.. then it is no longer about the age.
Sometimes I am just that dense.. I don't feel anything, and I need people to tell me in the face the purpose of something. Sorry that I am not that intelligent.
Over this one year and going 4 months, I still question myself if I am fit for this position. I really wonder if I have this job by luck or what.
For someone without knowledge in this field, I plunged in with a high but non-exec position. For someone that was not even 20 yet, this position is not even suitable.
I used to have a colleague who will send me to and fro home, and along the way.. he will keep planting positive thoughts in my head whenever I am feeling pessimistic. He left not long after I joined as a full timer. That one month plus were nothing but hopeful and joyful to me.
After I changed to my second dept, I met a colleague who was equally optimistic as the previous colleague. Someone with a higher and different type of humour.
Though it is also a new department, there is so many things to handle.. unlike my first department which is also relatively new. So many times I want to give up.
I keep wondering.. why is the new one in a new 4th party account? But I told myself, if I can survive this.. I can survive anything else.
I really don't know how long I can last though..
Putting full time work aside, I'm glad I survived my first semester as a part time student.
Just waiting for exam results to be out on 17th Dec!
While my 'school holiday' starts, I can get busy with the music recording with my Vesak peeps!
Target to finish '小幸运' recording and MV by end of the year. Abit late to catch up with the trend but well, still our first step.
Meanwhile, we are still recording our '悟' soundtrack. First attempt was not bad but quite rusty, gonna have a few more attempts before we finalise our first release of MV.
Got abit bored while staying over at Aunt's house over the weekend.. I wrote the lyrics of the song into its title, looks pretty not bad although the proportion is abit off. Just trying to self-console myself, Good attempt! Hehe.
Sunday, 8 November 2015
Somehow, I've never waited long enough for the rainbow to appear after the storm..
Gone were the days we had constant joy in our life.
Looking back at the photos in my phone, I realised how fortunate I am to be surrounded by all these friends.
On the way home today, I realised people do change.
Am I the only one that didn't or am I the only one that refuses to move on.
Suddenly feel very naïve.
How many of these friends will actually be by your side at the end of the day..?
Will years of friendship will also come to an end?
Who are the ones that will actually be in your life?
What is the meaning of friendship.
No one told me that you will lose these friendships as you grow up.
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